Broken Promises : Ayanda (COMPLETED)

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CINDI
This has to be the most awkward lunch ever.
I've been sitting here, trying to make sense of this in my mind. It's just been a year since what happened so him getting married makes me wonder if he really moved on that easy.
As I'm here, listening to my sister talk, I realise there's nothing holding me from also moving on.
I had a little hope that we'll maybe bump into each other and rekindle that spark but now I know that will never happen.
It's OK though. He seems happy and that's all that matters.
"Are you OK? "
My mom asks and I nod.
"Just have a lot in my mind "
I answer, shrugging.
"She's just seeking attention. Anyway, back to me"
I laugh, who's seeking attention now?
"I'll just go do the dishes"
I say, clearing the table. I haven't looked at him and I can't.
I regret all that happened but it's in the past. I can't beat myself up about it forever.
"What problem do you have with me? "
I swear she's starting to piss me off now.
I left because I wanted some peace but here she is, bugging me.
"None"
I say, not even turning to look at her.
"Then why are you being so bitchy? "
She asks, tapping her foot down.
"I'm your sister, you seem to have forgotten your manners. I've been keeping quiet through out with your disrespect but keep pushing, you'll get it"
I say and she huffs.
She knows I'm not afraid of her and I can beat her ass up right here and now.
"Well, Luke will protect me"
I laugh.
"You think I'm scared of your cop? "
I'm now looking at her and she seems shocked.
"How did you know he's a cop? "
"I've been there. We know each other "
I admit.
"Baby, let's go"
The fiance says.
"You know Cindi? "
She asks and he nods.
"I mean but how "
"She's the one I told you of. I just didn't think you're related. I mean, I wouldn't know since I'd never met her family "
she looks at me and claps once.
"Cindi, I'm disappointed shame. The way we were made to feel small because of you but look at you now. You're the eldest yet you're still living at home. Whoo shame. Let's go baby"
At this point, I wonder what he told her but I'm not worried.
I'm turning my life around and I believe that everything will go on as it should.
.
I've lived twenty four years of my life not knowing my father past his name.
To find out, at twenty five that he's actually alive and has been found was bittersweet for me.
This is a man who abandoned my mother in her time of need.
He left her filled with his sperms and never took responsibility for it.
He didn't even send us a cent.
"Look, you don't have to meet him"
Siya says as he sits next to me.
I don't think I'm ready.
It's Friday and I've spent the past four days thinking about this.
"Hello Siyabulela"
He hands my son to me
He's just fetched him from daycare.
Nothing much was done at campus since we just opened but I know the real heat starts on Monday.
"I know it's what you're stressing about "
I ignore him and talk to Thando instead.
"Did you have a good time at daycare? "
He nods with a smile.
"Ayanda "
Siya, says.
"Can't I have a conversation with my son? "
I ask, not even turning to look at him.
"You want me NEH "
I chuckle.
"Oh Siya, get over yourself "
I say, rolling my eyes.
It's later in the evening, when I've just taken a shower that I find him sitting on my bed.
He left after we had food together and now he's back.
"You almost scared me"
I say and he stands up and comes to me.
"You like starting trouble? "
He asks and I'm confused.
"What did I do? "
I ask innocently.
"You ignored me today "
Then, I laugh.
"You can be such a baby at times"
I say and drop my towel so I can begin with lotioning.
"When last did we have sex vele? "
I shrug.
"It's actually been a while. I don't think it's healthy"
I say and he laughs.
"And I mean... You're already naked "
He says and I turn to look at him.
"I'm surprised you're still talking "
I say as I wrap my arms around his neck.
His hands go to my butt and he starts kissing me.
It's exactly what I need.
Maybe this will help me decide better. He breaks the kiss, lowers his pants and picks me up. I love it when we're spontaneous.
"Mmh", I say when his raw penis enters me. I can't help the moans that escape my mouth as he thrusts in and out.
"Fuck ", I moan as I bite his shoulder bone. He's doing me so good that I feel a tear drop.
"Babyyy"
And he knows I'm close.
"wait for me", he says and his thrusts accelerate.