Reconnected (Tokio Hotel FanFic)

Ch 20- An Deiner Seite (Ich Bin Da) (By Your Side)

(Original)

Du schreibst Hilfe, mit deinem Blut/ Obwohl es immer wieder wehtut/ Du machts die Augen auf, und alles bleibt gleich/ Ich will nicht störn, und ich will auch nicht zu lange bleiben/ Ich bin nur hier um dir, zu sagen/ Ich bin da, wenn du willst/ Schau dich um, dann siehst du mich

(English)

You write help with your own blood/ 'Cause hope is all you've got/ You open up you eyes/ But nothings changed/ I don't want to cause you trouble/ Don't wanna stay too long/ I just came here to say to you/ Turn around, I am here/ If you want it's me you'll see- Tokio Hotel- An Deiner Seite (Ich Bin Da)

Ch 20

February 4, 2011

A cloud drifted over the sun, distancing the shadows of the room with diminishing rays. A draft seeped through the nearby window causing a shiver to run my spine. To any other person watching this Columbus sunset, it would've been a beautiful sight. Yet it only reminded me that another day passed. Another day without my mother. Another day of people invading space, waiting for the moment where I break the phase I'd fallen accustom to-rolling through the motions.

The door creaked open.

I felt no urge to turn.

It was periodic, people coming to check upon me, and eventually I learned to ignore the callings to confront the world. For now, I enjoyed the silence.

"Hey Sephora." The voice sounded foreign to my ears. Not like I couldn't place it though. I knew the person-very well for that matter.

I knew he stood behind me waiting for an answer that would never come. "You ok?" he asked. Giving a curt nod, still not bothering to turn to face him, I wish he'd just leave me in peace. "Sephora, it time to face the rain."

"Face what rain? It's more like a hurricane in my head."

"Get out of here and enjoy it."

"Bill, that's what I was doing before all of this. If I could've taken one moment back just to call, to say something, I would. But mum is just..." I swallowed, "Mum is just lying there. I can't just abandon her. I've already done that and I can do nothing to reverse it."

"Look, she'd want you to still live your life. Still enjoy the time you have left."

I turned to face Bill reluctantly. My voice heavy with despondency. "And where did you get that line from? A comforting book? That's such an over used phrase."

"But it's true."

"Bill, you've turned so automatic. What's happened to you?"

"Look at what happened to yourself. Just go home for once. Wash up, get some sleep, eat. You've been here almost a month."

"You've said the same thing every time you've walked in this room. What makes you think it'll be anything different."

"Your mother won't wake anytime soon. Just go home."

"Just like that, get up and leave?" A hiss of anger left my lips. "Just like everyone else in her life? Her family literally disowned her. My father, your father, packed his things and left. There are only two people that stayed in her life and I'm not going to be a coward and leave her."

"No one said you were leaving for good. It'll be a quick trip home and you'll be back in time." With finality in his voice, he finished, "I'll stay with her."

Giving me no other option, I took small steps in the direction of the door, but before leaving I pivoted on my feet. A faint whisper blew across my lips. "I'm so sorry."