Ma Fille Chérie | Billie Eilish

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a/n:

i'm excited for this book as much as y'all are

thankq for the love!! <3333

also who else eternally melted when billie made eye contact with the camera in love letter to los angeles

billie eilish, october 31st

los angeles | CA

i stared at the question for a long time. i shouldn't be putting that much thought into it. 

i'm straight!

...but am i?

i could barely believe myself anymore. maybe it's just lilou. not girls. maybe just one. fuck, i really have no clue what's going on with myself anymore. all because of one conversation this morning. 

shit's fucked. that's all i have to say about it.

l_roux
billie?
you there sweetheart?

again with the fucking names. driving me crazy, and i don't know in which way. 

wherearetheavacadoes
hi yes i am here
sorry
i'm thinking about a lot of things currently
i think i like guys
but idk anymore

l_roux
oh sorry! 
i didn't mean to put you on the spot :(

wherearetheavacadoes
no no its fine
dont worry about it 

l_roux
okayyy 
let's change the subject then
what did you do today?

wherearetheavacadoes
thank you 
umm i didn't do much
i was on my phone for most of the day lmao

l_roux
that's not good for you billieeeee

wherearetheavacadoes
ik ik
but i was bored as hell

l_roux
were you waiting for me to get back?

wherearetheavacadoes
maybe ;)

l_roux
you're so cute

godddddddd. my cheeks heated up for what felt like the billionth time today. 

wherearetheavacadoes
no
definitely not

l_roux
yes
definitely
i just wanna smoosh your cheeks!!

excuse me? what is she? my grandma?

wherearetheavacadoes
okay old lady

l_roux
lmfao
it's getting late billie
you should go to bed soon

wherearetheavacadoes
what! it's only ten

l_roux
i know, but that still late

wherearetheavacadoes
you're seriously being like my mom lmfao

l_roux
lmao
i just care about the people i know

wherearetheavacadoes
see now thats cute
not me

l_roux
shhhh
we can both be cute
but you're definitely cuter