I'm not one of those crazy girls (Hayley Williams fanfic)

Chapter 5 (Rug sweeping)

Alex's pov
I woke up to an empty bed.
The scent of vanilla lingering around the bunk I occupied.

You'd imagine that it'd be a good feeling, but no. It actually pained me to wake up alone.
I climbed out of the bunk, my feet hitting the cold floor.

I walked around the corner to hear Jeremy.
"Alex can stay on the tour bus with us for the rest of the tour"
"What" was all that me and Hayley said.

Her face showed so many emotions.
Confusion, hatred, lost, even a bit of rage.
"What" Hayley again repeated me staying silent.

"Alex can stay" Taylor spoke up with a smile and a few fist pumps into the air.
I stayed silent still watching Hayley try to compose herself.

Hayley looked up to me with a stern face.
"Can we talk, outside" she gestured for me to follow her.
We exited the bus and went to the side.

"Alex, we can't continue to do whatever we are doing. whatever this is.
Ok?" She said her eyes large and her face trying to make me understand.

"Why" was all I could say.
"Because I'm in a loving relationship" she responded with anger.
"Loving relationship? Hayley he yelled at you last night. that's why you fell asleep in my arms" I reasoned with her throwing my arms up in the air.

She rolled her eyes.
"He didn't mean anything he said"
"Is that what he tells you, just like how he tells you that Andrea means nothing to him" I blurted out instantly regretting it.

Her jaw tensed and her mouth stayed shut.
"Alexandra cooper, we cannot continue whatever the fuck you thought was going on before, ok?" She practically spat to me.

"So I'll take it you don't want me on the bus?" I decided not to respond to her proposition.
"I don't care, as long and you don't get any ideas" she rolled her eyes.

I hated this Hayley.
It's like she's trying to forget everything we went through.
God I hated it.

"Alright" I huffed stepping back into the bus.
The boys watched as me and Hayley entered the bus with silence.

"Soo, can she stay" was all Taylor said.
"I don't care" Hayley said before storming off to her bunk.

I stood feeling a bit upset and irritated.
What the fuck Hayley.
God she's oblivious, she honestly thinks that chad isn't doing anything with that Andrea chick.

What made me even more mad was the fact that she actually lead me on.
She lead me to believe that this is what she wanted.

She kissed me, countless times.
She cuddled me all fucking night.
And then I wake up alone and cold.

She's so fucking inconsiderate sometimes and I hate it.
I plopped down on the couch with the boys and grabbing the remote.

"Did you see the last walking dead episode" I questioned.
they shook their heads eagerly.
"No, let's watch it" Jeremy exclaimed.

I turned on the episode honestly not even paying attention, my mind was only on Hayley.
I wanted to take her and kiss her and just ugh.

I wanted all of her.
It was so hard for me to get my mind off of her, everything made me think about her.
Even while watching Rick banging a walker's head in, I thought about banging Hayley against a wall.
Fuck.

I thought about chad which actually made me want to hit a wall.
I was so angry, God I was so damn upset.

It's like when your upset and everything around you disappears except the root of your problems.