Mimi (BWWM)

never a monster

BEN POV

There Lauren lay in a pool of her own blood in the middle of the cold gray floor. Mimi stood over her body with the bloody knife she used to swipe away her life. She laughed a bit droping the knife next to the lifeless blonde. "she was a raging whore anyway. not that i can stand that black bitch but im really glad you didnt get with this piece of trash" she said now turning her back to me walking back to her seat. "what do you want Madeline?" I asked her ready to pull my gun from my pants. She cuckled in a sisnster way as she tapped her cheek. "you know what it is Ben stop acting like a dumbass. Its like your drunk off caramel." My blood started to broil at her refrence to Tina. She never used her name, only thought of derogatory ways to address her. "say. her. name" I said staring her dead in the eye. She looked at me with this testing look. Cocked her wrinkle infested face to a side a squinted those dead pools of blue. We stayed like that for a bit, testing each other. Until Mimi broke the silence.

"You know what" she started as she stood again. "This is all your father's fault teaching you it's okay to love whoever you want he's always been a dumb ass which is why it was easy for me to get everything." She finished now chuckling at her joke. She came chest to chest with me and looked up into my eyes. "You are me son- those baby blues, your perfect hair. Your willingness to put eveything on the line for your so called 'love' is no doubt 150% your ridiculous father." She said now straightening my shirt. I didn't know what she was doing, or if she was going out of her mind. But I shoved her old pale hand away from me. The only woman I let touch me was my Tina. She stepped back a bit surprised at my action and motioned over to Lauren's lifeless body. "You could have gotten with this beauty and none of this would have happened. This is all your fault Ben. For failing in love with that....that..black-" before she could finish that derogatory sentence I snapped. I blocked her up against the cinderblock cold wall. "I dare you." I said to her with my voice laced with fury. I was done playing games. I was ready to end this shit today.

"Oh sweetheart you wouldn't kill me over that." She said now full blown laughing in my face. One thing is for sure, I got my killing instincts from the devil herself. I grabbed the gun from my pants and pressed it against her temple. Her laughing came to a halt as she stared at me with wide eyes. "I'm not playing with you. You almost took away the two things I love most....a child? Are you kidding me?" I said with my hand wrapping around her neck that mimicked a tree trunk. Her cold hands held on to my arm as she was trying to break free. "You little bitch. All you had to do was marry a WHITE GIRL AND NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED!" she spat at me. "The fact her skin color means that much to you is ridiculous" I said tightening my grip a bit. "She's a better woman than you will ever be." I said as I dropped my grasp watching her quiver on the floor.

"I know you wont leave us alone until the day you die. So I have no choice."
I said drawing the gun to her forehead. "You wouldn't" she tested again. Before I even gave her a chance to beg for her life I pulled the trigger ending this nightmare. Not an ounce of remorse crept up my body. I backed away out of the cellar, as a pool of blood broke free out of that monster body. I hoped it would be the last time I ever had to come there.

Once I pulled up to greys hospital, My suit was burned along with Mimi and Lauren. Apparently Lauren had smuggled 500k from Eric and was cheating on him for years. Once I found out she was the one who not only hurt my Marci but Tina too, I had no remorse for what happened to her. Eric called from the hospital letting me know my baby was okay which was a huge weight off my shoulders. I glanced at my watch and it was 10pm. Marci should be sleeping by now but I know Tina would still be there wide awake even though I instructed Eric to stay at his post.

I walked into the sterile room that played spongebob in the right hand corner. The constant beat of Marci's heart was music to my ears. The first thing I noticed was Eric....that he was no where in sight. My blood started to broil as I walked further into the room watching my baby sleep alone. Right as I was about to pull out my phone to find Eric a familiar touch came to my arm stoping me from calling. I looked down to see the familiar slim fingers and perfect natural nails. I turned around to meet those big dark brown eyes ivr grown to love so much. I seemed to instantly relax with her now holding my hand. She lead me out of Marci's room into the hallway that seemed to have calmed down within those quick minutes. We stared into each other's eyes not saying a word. My hand caressed her soft cheek as her hand covered mine. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. "Boy am I glad to see you" I said taking all of her in. She shook her head trying to find words to say. But all that came were tears. Tears of grief, tears of joy. I pressed my forehead against hers as my hand found my way to her coconut hair which I missed so much.

"This war is over pumpkin." I said using my thumb to wipe away her tears. "She's done." I said in a more serious tone than before. Tina pulled her head away from me and looked at me with a questioning look. She didn't seem to quite grasp what I just said. Or maybe she just couldn't believe it. Her rugrats T-shirt hung low on her little body, as she gathered the bottom corner of the shirt to wipe the rest of her face off. She stared at me for what seemed like a lifetime until she finally said something. "You killed her didn't you" she whispered hesitantly. Her eyes never left mine. I wasn't going to lie. But I wasn't sure if there was hurt on her face or relief. I nodded my head not able to form the words admitting it. My hand ran through my hair and down to my neck, scratching it in awkwardness.

Tina ran both of her delicate hands over her face letting out a huge breath as she started pacing Infront of me. I couldn't help but feel defeated as she started to stare at the multi colored tiles on the floor below us. "You think I'm...I'm..a monster now don't you?" I said with all the voice I could muster. I tried to hold back the tears but I just couldn't. The love of my life could easily walk away from me. With our kids, with our life and at the moment I didn't know how to feel. I put my hand over my eyes trying to shield my emotions from her. Her long gaze at me had me feeling like an exposed lost puppy. She walked over to me and took my hand away from my eyes. She held my right hand in her left, as I stared at her tiny feet. "Ben-" she said cocking her head to the side for me to meet her gaze. "Sweetie look at me" she said in a more demanding tone. Picking my head up for our eyes to meet she smiled, now cradling me head in her hands. "I could never think your a monster, I just can't believe you would kill for me...i knew you loved me but.." she trailed off trying to find the words. My arms wrapped around her tiny frame pulling her in close. "I don't think" I started to say, placing a kiss on her forehead. "I could ever express how much I love you" I said truthfully now starting at her plump lips I loved so much. She caught me staring at her lips."Just kiss me geez" she said with a light chuckle. Without hesitation my lips touched her soft full ones. They automatically moved in sync with eachtoher. I took in her bottom lip, her most plump lip missing her taste. Our tongues danced in harmony while everything around us seemed to disappear. Things started to get heated but Tina took all her willpower to pull away. "We can't do this here" she said laughing burnishing her thumb on my swollen pink lip. I tried to kiss her again but she moved out of the way while she was still in my right grasp.

We both started to laugh at each other when a tiny petite black woman came into vision. She was down right staring at us and I couldn't help but feel a little bit uncomfortable. She was about Tina's size and height but a couple shades darker than her. Her hair was straightened- a state I hardly see Tina's in. While i was in my own thoughts Tina broke free of my embrace to address the woman she seemed to know. "Tori THIS is my husband, Marci's dad, Ben" she said placing her hand on my arm. The woman looked relived for some reason. And held out her hand for me to take. "Im your daughters doctor, Tori" she said but before I could respond Eric appears out of breath catching up to her. He stands right next to her staring down at her. Tori seemed to tense up-refusing to look at him. Tina and I stare at this odd dynamic between them, kinda mimics Tina and I in college. I can't help but chuckle a bit which earns me a slap on my abdomen from Tina. She gives me the "shut the fuck up" look and I try to compose myself.

"It's very nice to meet you, and thank you so much" I said to Tori. she smiles at me and rolls her eyes at Eric. As quickly as she appears she's gone down the corridor. Leaving a distraught Eric for Tina and I to attend to. "She said no didn't she" Tina asked reaching for Eric's hand. "I mean for now...but no worries I'll get her" he said trying to brush it off. I honestly thought Eric had a very specific type: needy super thin blondes but I guess I was wrong.

"Are u going to tell me what's going on?" I ask them both waiting for an answer. "I'm not telling you anything...that's all up to Eric" Tina says teasingly. She kissed me on the cheek and disappeared behind the wooden door. There left ERIC and I, to discuss some business.