It was all going fast
The lab-coated strangers told me to tell them all
Unfamiliar faces rushing past
I couldn't trust a stranger, I told them it was from a fall
Sad eyes upon me
The curse of empathy spreading like a contagious flu
The first time in a long time I didn't feel free
Supportive hands suffocating me but all I want is you
Flashing lights and sea-sickness with no boat
Stripped down to nakedness with my mad woman gown
Fresh blood, ringing ears and a tear-stained face
I didn't want the scientists to stare and gloat
I slipped into safety and I watched myself from above, I could float
I knew I shouldn't have got on that plane, I didn't even want to leave town
They laid me back flat
White-coated, metallic removed, and they put me in to check for bruising on my brain
It would have matched my black-and blue bruised damaged face
I do not know much,
But one thing I do know is that a Cat-Scan will not detect my pain
The pain which has been stalking me and haunting me since birth
Ever-so sneakily, lurking, leaving a trace but I can't keep up
My shadow of pain is well beyond my pace
They fixed my face, and helped me to full recovery
They made sure I felt pretty
My outside scars fading but my insides dark and ugly
But I smile and thank them for their work
Because I am tired of people's pity.
The lab-coated strangers, they will always know best
And if a cat-scan of my head puts their worries to rest
Who am I to argue?
In my knee-ripped jeans, and un-straightened hair
If I can keep just one or two happy and from despair
Then I'll fake a smile,
besides when it is pain they cannot see,
they never really care.
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PoetryA poetry collection with random poetry I have written overtime, and thought i'd share. I aim to add a new poem into this collection every day, could be the occasional off day :-) hope you enjoy! **thoughts day to day, put pen to paper and let the...