An organised mess

The destination

I wanted to feel like a child at Christmas 

I thought, there is no time like the present 

I wrote a list of all the things I wanted and the places I wanted to be

The wait and work begun to reach the blessed event 

I ached to feel like I was walking on sunshine 

I knew if I dug and searched somewhere in the future my happiness could be found 

Amongst the infinite stars and planets there is a fire that will spark my heart

Maybe I should have started my search on the ground 

I craved to smile and jump for joy 

Up and down the career ladder, happiness could be in the next place 

I bounced to the ticket office to book a weekend trip 

A ticket to the future is the ticket for happiness 

And I need to win this race 

All I wanted was to feel over the moon 

I looked for happiness during the day and during the night 

Always on the move towards the elusive search for happiness 

If I keep thinking about what's coming next I will get my search right 

This fleeting ecstasy a feeling that never lasts 

And I am so far into my future and permanently dissatisfied with my past 

I wanted to feel like a child at Christmas

I thought, there is no time like the present 

I wrote a list of all the things I had write now and the things I loved about where I was 

I wanted today to last

I stopped celebrating the end of the day 

I enjoyed the middle and did not count down till the end 

I really did not want it to end 

I did not want to get to a certain destination to be happy 

I was happy with my destination now 

I didn't need to be nine to feel on top of the clouds 

Right now, this present, is what I have chosen 

This destination at present, I'm in love with this moment.