Mama's Boy

10

Satan

I already know what will happen the moment I walk through the door. I prepare myself for whatever my mom has planned.

I didn't break up with her, I couldn't. Her presence is something I can't get rid of. She cares about me, that's what I need—someone to care.

"What did I say?" she says walking up to me. My mom has brown eyes that stare into mine with pure anger. Her eyebrows furrowed as they looked at me. Fear is drawn on my face as she gets closer. "Look at your brother."

My brother, the boy I grew pity of. I used to think he couldn't do anything. Now I know, he doesn't care. He never cared about me. He watched as my mom beat me. He wouldn't care about my father's abuse. Why did I ever think he cared?

His face has a small smirk, almost like he knew what was coming. He doesn't want Angel, he wants to hurt me.

"You wanna be disrespectful? If you don't wanna listen to what I have to say, you can leave," she says pointing towards the door.

I shake my head, where am I supposed to go? "Get your shit and leave."

"What's going on?" My father says as he walks inside. "I can hear yelling from outside."

"She is no longer staying with us."

"W-why not?" He says confusion and fear on his face.

"She's disrespectful," she says and I have no idea how to feel or react.

"Come on, she can stay. You're being dramatic," my dad says and puts his arms around my waist, making me go stiff.

"If she's not out of my house, then I'm leaving," my dad agreed to my mom's decision. I was to move out by the end of the week. I went up to my room sobbing into my hands while Rain comforted me.  I haven't done anything, yet I'm being kicked out.

———

The next day, I walked to school. "Hey babe!"

I smile small not able to hide my feelings well. I'm going to be homeless, nowhere to stay. "What's wrong?"

My eyes start to sting in front of her and I can't help but feel weak. My chest gets heavy almost like bricks are being laid on top. She takes notice, rubbing my arms as tears fall from my eyes. My breathing quickens and I start to sweat. There is nothing I can do but panic in front of her. "Hey... Hey, it's okay. Come here."

I feel her arms pull me in and I cry. I cry and I cry until there's no more tears left. I shake in the safety of her arms until my body relaxes. I breathe slowly into her neck as she rubs my back.  "What happened hm?"

I can't lie to her, I know she'll hate it. I don't want her to feel bad for me either. It will only make me feel less and weak, more than I already do. I know that if I don't, I will lose her trust and care.

"They kicked me out" I sign after she lets me go and I face her.

"What? Are you serious? Because I won't date your dumbass brother?" She shook her head and kissed her teeth. She seems more angry than I am.

To be honest, I'm not angry. Just scared, confused, and hurt. "Where are you staying."

I shrug my shoulders barely holding eye contact. "I'm gonna help you okay?"

I nod and we make our way into the building, hand in hand.

Throughout the months she's been here which isn't lone, Angel has given me more care and attention than my family has ever given me. I trust her now.