Hi.
I'm not in a good mood right now and I didn't want to spoil your mood too by reading my letter but I really need a place to spill everything out.
And I can only tell you who doesn't know who am I. To me, I think it's better when you don't know me.
It's tiring. It really is.
I can't understand why they have to think in that way. Why do they have to be suspicious on everything? Why do they have to be so picky on what I should say and what I don't?
Can't I just tell everything that I want?
I know the limits. I know what to tell and what not to.
I'm sick of hiding the truth from my friends.
I don't see a need to hide at all.
This is so not me.
I'm not someone who likes to play riddles with my words.
I don't like keeping it when I can actually tell.
They never thought of my feelings.
I'm just getting so tired of it. Its upsetting.
I hate the way they talk. I hate the way they think.
You can't say that they are wrong but I hate it.
It's too extreme and I hate it so much.
I'm tired enough for hiding my dream from them and I still have to hide other things from other people.
Why do I need to do that when I don't have a reason to do so, Yi Xing?
Can you tell me why?
Why can't my family think in a better way?
I trust my friends.
I know I need to be careful with my words because there might be some people who would misuse what I said when I'm telling my friends, I know.
But to me,
I'm so tired of hiding everything from everyone. It's too much.
I hope someone can understand me at least, 1%.
1% and I'm happy enough.
Not acting like they understand me but they actually don't because what they think of me,
Is totally wrong.
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