Rejected

Chapter Twenty Four

My head was resting on Lucifer's shoulder as we watched Jay and Lucille play together, although it seemed like Jay was talking to himself most of the time, while Lucille was just staring off into space.

Ever since she came back, it seemed as if she paid even less attention to the real world and when I asked Lucifer about it, he would just say that's how she always was, but I'm her mother so of course I know how my child behaves. So whenever I ask him that question, he just goes around it.

Anyways, I've been feeling like a switch in me has been flipped and I don't know if I'm actually still the same me that I used to know. My thoughts are no longer the same and just being in my own skin doesn't feel right. It feels as if there is a terrible itch that no matter how hard I scratch just won't go away.

Almost as if sensing my thoughts, Lucifer began to gently stroke my head as I snuggled closer in to him.

I wanted to be playing with Jay right now but something inside was just keeping me away from him and I just wanted to rip at it. He was my life and meant the world to me as did Lucille, but whatever it was just didn't like him.

All I know that I was ready to tear myself up because there was no way in Hell I would just ignore my son as if he didn't exist, when he was my entire life.

"I'm going to get something to eat," I said, as I felt a hunger for something that I didn't know.

Lucifer had a knowing look in his eyes as he smiled at me before nodding his head. Before he didn't really display loving emotions that much because he has a reputation of being cruel and evil, but for some reason something just changed in him as well.

'My queen.' Those words just kept on playing on repeat in my head ever since he had said them. It didn't make any sense but a part of me really liked being called his queen. I felt as if no harm could ever come to me and I just felt as if I was always his from the very beginning.

Entering into the kitchen, I was greeted by a few teenagers who were just rummaging through the fridge as if they were about to die if they didn't eat something soon.

Ignoring the mess that they were creating in the process, I went straight to the cupboard that kept all the snacks that was just bought and began looking for something to satisfy my growing hunger.

Finding a packet of chocolate biscuits, I instantly grabbed it because what girl doesn't love anything to do with chocolate? Well I love chocolate, but just not the dark ones but still you get what I mean.

Ripping open the packet, I began stuffing my mouth with the chewy goodness but that only caused my hunger to grow. It was as if my stomach was the one telling me what it wanted to eat and it was being really picky, but since this is my body I decided that I would eat my biscuits as I walked up back to my room.

Lucifer was sitting on the floor as he was playing with Jay and his toys while Lucille was now drawing in her notepad.

"Anyone want some?" I offered while taking a seat next to Jay.

"Yes please," he said, dropping his red toy car as his hand was already taking a few biscuits out.

"No thanks," Lucille and her father said at the same time, which made my eyebrow raise.

"You two must have really bonded," I commented, as I returned back to stuffing my mouth, but my stomach was just not having it as it refused to let another one of the biscuits enter in it.

Rushing into the bathroom, I threw up what I had just eat before flushing the toilet and washing my mouth.

"I don't feel so good," I told Lucifer as I came back outside. My head was spinning as my stomach was growling.

"Maybe you should go for a run since you wolves are to connected nature. I'm sure you will much better after," he said, not looking at me once.

Something about the way he said it had my mind already generating questions but I ignored them as I thought that it was a good idea. Maybe some fresh air would clear my mind up in the process as well.