Bounty - Winter Soldier Fanfic

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I laid in bed staring at the ceiling.

Worrying.
Thinking.

I should go back.
They might need me.

They probably don't.

"Stephanie, what's wrong?" I heard Bucky's voice.

I subconsciously called him.

"Oh I'm sorry. I didn't mean to call. I guess it just happened. Sorry."

"Don't be sorry." He was quiet for a moment. "I'll be back at the hotel in half an hour. Then we can talk about what's on your mind."

"Oh." I don't know if I had anything to talk about.

Well I had something I needed to tell him but I don't think now was the time.

"Steph?" Bucky snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah. Sorry. Um I'm actually kinda tired so I think I'll just try and get some sleep."

"Sure. Sleep well. I'll be there soon. Hopefully that'll help you feel a little better."

I softly smiled to myself. "It will."

"Goodnight Stephanie."

"Goodnight James."

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My eyes fluttered open and the bed roughly shifted.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to wake you."

I silently shook my head.

"How are you feeling?"

"Okay." I croaked.

"Okay."

We looked at each other silently.

Our relationship has shifted.

Obviously shifted.

Our time was now more sacred.

This mission was more dangerous than before.

We both knew that.

"Really. How are you? You were really shaken up back there." He cut in.

I took a deep breath. "I'm okay. Really. He just scared me that's all. I think everything was catching up to me."

"Everything?"

I nodded. "This mission or whatever you want to call it. The clear and present danger of it all. You and Steve. I just...it's getting to me I think." I honestly answered.

"Me? What about me?"

"I..." what do I say? This was so hard.

Pierce always told me to leave my feelings out of missions.
They were distractions.

But I feel like Bucky felt the same way.
Maybe knowing how I feel will help in some way?

Maybe we'd be stronger together.

Maybe I would ruin everything.

I don't know how to do these sort of things.

I've only had one boyfriend before and he wasn't the best to be honest.

But Bucky is smart and sweet and genuine and pure and.... I wanted him.

I wanted him more than I've ever wanted anything in my life.

I want him to hold me and to kiss me and talk to me.
I want him to open up to me.

I want him to need me the way that I need him.