The remainder of the night was spent crying and the next morning, without any sleep, I got up, showered and decided to go to the soccer field.
Just to practice and get time away from home.
I walked the fifteen minutes walk to school, going straight to the field, where I poured my heart into exercising and doing drills.
Just as I decided to finish, my coach walked up with a smile.
"I passed by and saw someone, I had to stop by and see who's putting in work on a Saturday" he smiled, making me nod slowly.
"Kinda a stress relief" I laughed lightly, seeing him nod.
We talked for a few minutes about the field and our schedule of games before he left and I just kicked the ball around for a few minutes.
I put everything back up and slowly started walking back home.
I ended up stopping and getting a smoothie before continuing my walk home, happy that I didn't have to eat cereal at least.
I walked inside, seeing my dad sleeping on the couch, which had now became his resting area.
I went to the kitchen and as I cleaned I heard him groaning lightly.
I grabbed a water and took some Tylenol to him, which he accepted.
"Holl?" He spoke, using my nickname that he hasn't called me in forever.
I stopped, letting him know I was listening.
"Can you cook me some eggs?"
I did as he asked.
I made him scrambled eggs, bringing them to him once I finished.
"Thank you" he exhaled, making me continue to look to him.
"Do you remember anything you said last night?" I asked him.
"No" he laughed lightly.
I didn't laugh, which made him immediately stop, focusing to me.
"Did I hit you again?" He asked.
"No, but you did tell me that you never wanted a daughter" I spoke, seeing him immediately look down.
"If you love me- even a little bit- you'll try to stop drinking for me." I told him firmly.
He rubbed his face, nodding lightly.
"This is my escape, Holland-" "yeah, well your fucking escape is breaking my fucking heart!" I yelled to him.
"I want my dad back." I ended up crying, seeing his face soften.
"I want my dad that loved me and would do anything for me, I want the dad that I had before we wrecked back" I cried, seeing him looking to me sympathetically.
"I just want everything back to normal."
