I'm here again. I'm dead but didn't reborn yet. Before a big change.
No emotions
No thoughts
No time
Endless nothing
And no one
Not even me
I am observing but making no conclusion. When things are broken I hold the broken parts together before they fall and shatter to more and more pieces. Constant dying. That's what life is about. But now. I am nowhere. I am freezed in that moment.
My brain eventually aknowledged that if I'm not gonna drink blood, feed on something or someone, I'll be dangerous for the others. So the first thought I had was my brother. And the memory of him as he killed himself that just kept going on in my mind.
I was scared because this is the memory I had to be reborn from. This is my birth catalizator. This unbearable pain. Maybe it's going to be the reason why I'll never stop living anymore. Because if I return to the living, this memory, this pain will never fade.
A new trauma.
But on the contrary, something is finally ended. Not coming back anymore. He may rest in peace, and my rebirth won't hold the fear of my past.
So now
just one thing left to me.
I have to come back.
CZYTASZ
My first times
Wampiry- So? - I whispered in his ears and I could smell his scent. - What? - Do you feel yourself in danger? - I don't see why should I - he said leaning even closer so that I could feel his breathe, moreover I could touch his pulsing vein, the life r...
