Falling for you

Decisions

Emily:
I had a hard time sleeping last night. My mind reeling as I thought of Alison and I kissing. The kiss just felt so right and I wanted her to kiss me again. Sadly, that dream was never going to happen. It's just for practice, at least for her it is. It should also be for me, I hated being like this to Paige and I knew I should be faithful. But as I rolled over in the morning and saw Alison's golden hair sprawled out against the pillow, I melted. She looked totally peaceful and beautiful. Her stomach rising and falling like the oceans waves, her hand curled up underneath her head. I slowly got up and tried not to wake her. I checked my phone and saw that I had a message from Paige.

From Paige:
Good Morning babe. I love you.

I looked at Alison and then at my phone and I knew what I had to do.
I had to separate myself from Alison so that I could not hurt this much inside. I needed to focus on Paige and focus on working on our relationship. As much as I hated doing this, I had to create space between us.
"Hey." I gently woke Alison up, " I've got to go out with Paige today so I kinda need you to get up."
She mumbled but got out of bed and got dressed.
"Thanks." I hugged her quickly goodbye and resisted hanging on. She hesitated before leaving and looked at me strangely but didn't say anything and left. I let out a deep breath and called Paige.

"Come in." I smiled at Paige and held her hand. She smiled back at me as I led her to my room.
"Do you want anything to eat?" I asked as I played with her hair.
"Maybe we should cook something together?" Paige touched my cheek and kissed my nose.
"That sounds even better." I took her hand again as we walked into the kitchen. I looked down at our hands and thought to myself "this is where I belong. I won't get hurt with Paige."
"We're going to make pasta for sure." She instructed me, looking at our cook book.
"You read my mind." I stared at her for the first time in a long time. She giggled at me, "stop it."
"I can't" I blushed as she pulled me into her. She put her lips close to mine but then she whispered to me, "after we cook."
I sighed, "why do you do this to me?"
Paige just laughed at me and hugged me from behind as I put the water in the pan to boil it. She kissed my neck.
"Babe, stop teasing me." I whined as she kissed up to my ear.
"Sorry." She said as she continued to kiss my shoulders and neck.
"Help me! And stop!" I protested as her hands moved to my waists "you were the one who said later." I smirked.

She poured the pasta into the boiling water and I started to make the sauce.
"Omg hurry up Emily. I'm starving." Paige whispered into my ear making me weak.
"S-so lets eat." I stammered as she kissed my arms.
I drained the pasta and mixed the sauce with it. "Grab me two bowls please, love."
"Of course." Paige grabbed two bowls from the cabinet and handed me them.

After we were done, we moved to the couch and she pulled me into her arms. It was so easy to love Paige when I wasn't around Alison. Maybe this is where I was meant to be, in Paige's arms. All I had to do was forget Alison and love Paige. It couldn't be that hard, as long as Alison didn't kiss me anymore I'd be fine. I didn't love Alison. I didn't.

I didn't.