Hourglass

XVI

Memories reminds us that nothing lasts forever.

Time is precious and should not be wasted.

Will the clouds and the moonlight show his heart?

He hiding under a faded wall, waiting for that person to break.

To allow the nameless wildflowers to be together.

Wei Wuxian glanced at Lan Wangji's back.

To shed tears by himself, for a love that will never fight for him.

"Why won't you fight for me?" He whispered. He can't be with a person who won't choose him. He won't go to him until he returns to him. For thirteen years, nothing changed. While he was moving forward, Lan Wangji is still stuck in the place where he left him.

He miss him, he miss him so much, he can't forget about him, his tears, his heart is calling for him.

He loves him, he loves him so much, he can't let go but he has to, he was lost behind him so he could only cry.

Wei Wuxian's memories of love now lost.

The flaps of Lan Wangji's clothes fly before his eyes. He could only go back with only his heart on his arms.

His call... will never be answered.

Only one person for him, into countless memories of their broken promises.

Another passing, he's falling asleep in pain. He dreamt of falling asleep in his arms one day.

But he has to keep his love to protect himself.

Do Lan Wangji know this love?

Does he know his heart?

Do he know this lingering painful love?

While Wei Wuxian was looking only at him, waiting, waiting, though his heart aches for him to take the step.

The man he wished to move never dared to walk to him.

"You're leaving again..." Wei Wuxian said, everyone stared at him, "you always do the leaving! I was ready to forgive you if you explain things to me? But you're doing the same thing over again!"

Like a branch in a winter that's always been parched and so thin.

With his wavering heart.

He want to be happy, with the person he love.

He had no desire for anything.

He just wanted him to chose him—not turn away from him.

Getting love by the person he love, has it always been this hard?

He was stupid, he believed that someday this person would come to him willingly.

He tried so hard.

But now that everyone is protecting him for this pain.

Now that everyone is trying to break his trust.

"How did I ever give someone the power to mess me up this bad?" Wei Wuxian bitterly smiled, his words did not reached that person. His words were not heard or understood.

It has always been him, to hurt. To yearn for his love. Always him.

Underneath the umbrella in the rain of Gusu, Wei Wuxian remembered the edge of Lan Wangji's shoulder a bit wet. Close enough that he could feel even the small shivers going through.

The same back, the same instance when he promised to come back. The look in his eyes. He wondered, if he remembered, all the things they talked and promised together.

The rain in Yunmeng poured down quietly, raising so painfully just like the day Wei Wuxian let him go.

It's raining once again, that his mind goes back to the happy memories, he guess he is not ready yet. He guess he is still waiting.

'Did things go wrong for us because nothing can last forever?'

'Did you really think I'll always be the first one to go to you?'

'Were we happy back then because nothing can last forever?:

"How long do you want to wait for you?"

Just like that white ice flower that bloomed because of their love in their past. Put it's face out in the welcoming winds as it shed the tears over the wrodless and nameless past. Hiding in the cold wind, melting down under the ray of the sun. That's how Lan Wangji came to Wei Wuxian.

Only good memories, only a longing heart, on the path where you left me, he was still standing there alone. He swallow up his ears and at the end waited for him to return.

The fiery love that bloomed and wither in his youth, became memories to call him out once again.

His scent that remained on Wei Wuxian's fingers is scattering away. There hands growing apart, where the latter can no longer hold onto. And now...

All hopes...

Shattered under his feet.

His life is incomplete, he spend his days again nothing different. The emptiness can't go away.

He was wanted to shake it off.

'What do I do about the time that moves forward?'

He haven't done everything for the past times

Taking off the white ribbon wrapped on his arms.

Wei Wuxian ran after Lan Wangji.

He pulled the man in his arms and kissed him. His tears falling as he let go with a smile.

Placing the white ribbon to Lan Wangji's hand.

Wei Wuxian was ready.

Ready to hurt again for this man.

He lowered his head and turned around.

Every member of lotus pier were once again crying for their young master.

"If you can't make me happy..." Wei Wuxian said, "Jiang Cheng will..."

After seeing A-Yuan, his child had a conflicted expression.

His eyes fixed to his mother and then to his father. He was hurt to see his mother cry. He has always been crying every night calling for this man.

"A-Yuan... It seems your father still doesn't understand..." Wei Wuxian asked, "will you let mama be happy with another?"

Jiang Yuan did not respond. He gritted his teeth as he lounge to his father and pushed him away. It hurts him, to see his mother cry for the same man over and over again.

"GET LOST!!!" Jiang Yuan cried.

Lan Wangji was taken back.

"You.... Knew?"

Jiang Yuan's tears fell, "how long do you plan to torment my mother?! How long do you want to keep pushing us away! You love him but why aren't you doing anything?! Why aren't you trying to fix our family!? Why do you keep making him cry for you!!!"

Jiang Yuan's shouts echoed. Jiang Fengmian, Yu Ziyuan and Lan FengYan finally arrived. Jiang Yuan was cursing at his father, completely devoid any feeling's towards the man.

"How long do you want us to keep fixing everything between us when you're doing nothing?"

"I'm... Tired of coveting for your love..." Jiang Yuan cried, "I'm tired crying for you and A-Niang.... Making us hope and cry all over again?! It's your inactions that led us to this! It's you and everyone else! You and your crook righteousness destroy us!"

Wei Wuxian already embraced his son. Trying to calm her now crying child.

"Why can't you understand... That we need you to choose us? Why can't you understand... We also want to be happy?"

"A-Die..."

"Why do keep hurting us?

...to be continued...