On The Ice

- Chapter 33 -

-2 months later-

Sienna

I've been traded, I don't live in San Jose anymore. Once the season starts I won't be living with my husband anymore. How fucked up is that?

I'm living in Seattle next season, a two hour flight away. I'm going to go fucking crazy. We barely saw each other during the season for the last three season, never mind now.

We literally will not see each other at all. Given the upcoming schedules we won't be able to be home together for a few days at a time like what we got last season and the two season before. It's so fucked up.

I've only just got the email, I haven't told him yet. Honesty I'm scared I'll break down when I tell him. I really don't know what to do I'm really stuck here. I wasn't expecting this at all, it's really come out of nowhere.

We won't even be in the same state anymore. It's not like I could drive home to see him, it's a thirteen hour drive. I love my job but god does it suck right now.

I need to clear my head and normally skating would be what I do but I can't stand up be near ice right now.

The worst part is Xavier isn't even here right now, I really don't want to tell him over the phone, we need time to process this together. If I stick to my current contract, I have to do two seasons in Seattle, then I'm free to do what I want. I just really don't see how it'll work, how we will work.

I don't think we'd be able to handle that, we'd get to overwhelmed. We wouldn't be able to do FaceTime calls once a week, we'd fall apart. I can see us making it two seasons and still be together. I just can't.

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Today 13:47

Sienna: when are you going to be home? We need to talk.

Xavier: I'm in my way now? Is everything okay?

Sienna: I don't want to talk about it over the phone, okay? I want to do it in person.

Xavier: okay.

I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't know what I'm going to tell him. I don't know how we're going to do this. I guess I don't know a lot of things right now and it's really stressing me out.

I have to tell Kayla too, that alone is killing me. We were apart for one season and it starting splitting us apart, never mind two.

I hear the doorbell go off and I think this may be one of the hardest conversations I'm ever going to have and that may seem dramatic but it's really eating away at me.

"What's wrong?" He says sympathetically, he can see it all over my face.

"Please can we sit down?" I ask him and he nods, walking past me into the house as I lock the door behind him, following him into the living room.

"What's going on?"

"It's a lot, okay? Please try to keep an open-mind." He nods at my slowly, "I've been traded." I guess that just came out like that, okay. Way to rip off the band-aid.