unwanted

Miss.####&Dr.#### part 3

It's the fourth day

No word from him

Maybe I'm just ignoring all the red flags that are right in front of my eyes. Maybe I'm just lonely and need to focus more on life and stop letting my happiness depend solely on a person.

I'm starting to realize that I'm not a happy person and when I pretend to be happy people are attracted and drawn to that but it's not me.

They are drawn to the fake me.

It's my fault that I chose someone who doesn't have time to help me forget everything.

He only wants to see me to get Laid plain and simple and you know what I'm going to make him drawn to me. I am going to make him want me and be obsessed. I going to make him miss me so much that he'll start to lose it and when that happens.....I'm going to drop him but first I must lose my small feelings that I have for him.

Because I hate to feel alone when I'm with someone I hate that they cannot stop me from forgetting everything all the time.

I'm going to use him to forget everything and that'll be all just no strings attached just intercourse. That's all.