unwanted

enough

I don't know what to do.....

I feel so depress.....

My body is slowly giving up....

How do I let go without letting go....

Have you ever felt so unwanted.....

Well I feel unwanted everyday.....

I dont have any friends because I distance myself from everyone.....

I don't think i can handle friendship right now....

I want so much things for myself but I'm not pushing myself at all...

I'm not doing anything I'm watching my teenage time goes away and I don't know what to do....

I have noone I can talk to....

Theres nothing I can do...

Noone understands me.....

I feel so lost in this world.....

I feel out of place like I dont belong...

My mother is just here laughing and talking, enjoying her life...

Whiles I'm still here undecided on what I'm gonna do I feel disgusted with myself.....

I'm not making time for myself or school...

I'm just doing nothing with my life....

Wanting the easy way out and it's not gonna happen.....

I know for a fact when I turn 18 I'm leaving......

Being at this house I feel like I'm going crazy.....

Being away from here gives me peace.....

At night I can't sleep because I'm thinking too hard.....

I cant even answer simple personal questions without anxiety starting to kick in...

Everytime I try talk to my mom she sucks her teeth or make some excuses....

So as I lay in my bed at night thinking is this how I'm gonna be forever stuck here....

Sometimes I wish I wasn't even brought to this earth it's not like I'm going to affect anybody by leaving....

Noone checks up on me I have to be the one....

People only talk to me when its beneficial......

And as I go sleep for school Tommorow, wake up pretending and laughing like everything is okay and repeat samething every night...

I've had enough.....