unwanted

why?

Why would you hurt me?

Why would force hatred into my heart? Is it because you've had it rough in your life time

Why would you make me feel like a disgrace/outcast? Is it because I'm not smart or pretty, please just tell me

Why do you make me feel worse than the people who bullies me? Oh its because you hate me

Do you ever regret having me? I do regret you having me

Sometimes I wish I could turn back the hands of time.....

I'm so closed off from people I have noone I can go to and talk about my situations comfortable

Everytime I try to talk to someone I hesitate and leave out alot of things or I don't talk to them about it and switch the subject

I feel scared talking to a bunch of people who I know and don't know I'm scared of changes I'm scared of meeting new people, etc.

From I was younger I've always had anxiety and never knew what it was now I know what its capable of doing to me and I try to do new things but it scares me

I cant talk to my mother she has no care for me and I cant talk to my father because I feel uncomfortable

My sisters I wouldn't even go to them cousins I feel uncomfortable bf I never thought about it and I won't

I don't think I need a boyfriend right now I can't even keep myself happy I don't know what makes me think I can make him happy.

he works and when I'm not talking to him I get bored and depress and I start overthinking and everything comes crashing down all in one

I feel so exhausted

I need a break from everything but I just can't get it