unwanted

We talked/scared

We talked and it's final. I'm moving out.
Life will be harder for me but it's something that I need to do.

I know he won't be around long but I'll enjoy him while he is.

I'll get my teeth fixed with it with out them.
I'll do it.

Even if I break myself I'm doing it and I'm doing if for me. Monday I shall go there before it closes.

Then J. I appreciate him so much but I'm afraid he won't be in my life forever.

I'm scared but it's something I need to do for myself. I have to do it

I know I'm repeating the same thing but as I'm writing I'm reassuring and comforting myself.

Honestly I'm scared as shit I'm finally becoming an adult. I don't have nothing to fall back on. And that's scary but yet I'm still going through with this.

I'm scared
I'm scared
I'm scared
I'm scared
I'm scared

Am I ruining my life, am I ??