kids • jude bellingham

nineteen

"no no no" i repeat into the phone "what's up with her?"

"i'm not sure, but the doctor told me to notify you" the woman says

i end the call

"what's wrong?" Jude asks

"somethings up with mum, and they won't tell me"

"do you want to go?"

i nod as i put my coat and shoes back on and we get back into the car

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we arrive at the hospital

"i'm here for Shelly Harris, my mum" i say to the receptionist

"oh good timing, the doctor's right there" she says pointing behind us

"what's wrong" i ask, worried

"Chloe, i'm really sorry to say this but the cancer came back, badly as well"

"no no no no, NO" i begin to break down

"i think it would be a good idea to call any family to come and say goodbyes, we can let you guys in soon"

"NO NO NO" i cry

i can't do this again

not my mother

she was all i had left

Jude brings me into his chest and i begin to sob

"hey, you understand i'm here for you, right?" he says as i look up at him, tears also in his eyes

i nod but go back to crying

i realise i should probably tell Emil

.

"Emil?"

"are youse not back yet from London"

"we came back" i sniffle, Jude holding me in his arms "but i got a call from the hospital a-an-and.." i start breaking down

"mum's going" i cry

the line goes silent

"i'm coming" he manages to say

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not long after, Emil and the Bellingham's all arrive at the hospital, i see Emil's face, and the boy is on the verge of tears, but i can't blame him, i'd been crying into Jude's arms for the last 15 minutes, his shirt is soaked.

Denise walks up to me, it was obvious she was also in tears

she holds me in her arms

she was always like a second mother to me

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we were all in tears, even Jude was crying and Jobe was on the verge of tears. our families had become so close since my father's death, and nobody saw this coming, all the doctors assured us that mum would survive.

"were ready for you to see her" the doctor says to us

.

jude's pov

i was heartbroken

Shelly, their mum was like my mother too

even when i left for Germany without telling Chloe, she was disappointed in me, but she told me that no matter what, Chloe would forgive me. even if at the time i thought what i did was so unforgivable, and i was so guilty, and i never thought she would.

but she did

Shelly was right. she was always right

if i ever needed advice, she was the best at giving it. 

i walked in. eye's filled with tears

it reminded me of that day

just like her husband, she layed in the hospital bed, weak and pale. 

"Jude?" she smiles as i kiss her forehead

"Shelly?" i sniffle

"Jude take care of chloe" she mutters

"i will" i weep, knowing the pain Chloe will have to go through

she takes my hands, and places two small objects into it

"me and John's wedding rings, i know you and Chloe are forever, i can see it" she smiles, barely opening her eyes

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chloe's pov

they all go in to say their goodbyes one by one, but i decide i should go in last

"chloe?" mum mutters as i hold her hands, beginning to weep

"m-mum, don't leave me" i cry

"i love you chloe, you and Emil" she smiles "be strong"

and at that moment the worst imaginable thing happens

beeps fill the room

"NOOOOOOOOOOOO" i scream "MUM- NO DON'T GO" i burst into tears as doctors and others rush into the room

my face becomes covered in tears

not on Christmas, just not on Christmas

i can't

Jude rushes into my embrace, even through the tears in my eyes, which blur my eyesight, i can see tears rushing down his somber face

my heart fills with sadness.

i can't do life again

what's the point?

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