kids • jude bellingham

twenty

"merry christmas Cee" i hear Jude say as i'm woken up from my sleep

"go away" i weep, pushing him away

"at least come get some breakfast"

i shake my head and close my eyes again

at that moment i feel ill

i feel pain, my stomach churns as the beeps replay in my head

i sprint to the bathroom, Jude watching on, and begin to throw up into the toilet

he kneels down next to me, bringing my hair behind my ears, and comforting me

i physically can't do this again

.

i force myself to go downstairs that evening, to at least have christmas dinner with them. Denise had already prepared the food the day before, and even though we were all shattered from the events of last night, it was still christmas after all.

Denise pulls me into a hug, and we both take our seats on the dinner table, which is covered in food

i look at Emil's pained face. this time he was old enough to understand.

i can barely shove some stuffing down my throat, trying not to be rude. but after 15 minutes, i find myself throwing up into the toilet again.

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mia's pov

"is she still not answering?" Vini asks, as i bite my lips in nervousness

i was in Brazil with him for christmas, and while most of the family were inside watching movies, we were outside in their garden, trying to get hold of Chloe.

"ill just text Jude" i say giving up, as i had called her 19 times and she hadn't been answering

i was worried

.

jude

oi jude

where the hell is Chloe?

she's here at home

why isn't she answering

something happened

Jude

did you fucking do anything to her again

i didn't do nothing

so whats going on

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i decide to call him

"jude if you've broken her again-"

"Mia- it's about Shelley" 

i feel my heart drop in my chest

"her mum?"

"yes"

"what happened"

"she's gone"

this can't be

"i thought she was going to be fine-"

"she got a call last night, we went to the hospital and they said the cancer came back and she wasn't going to survive, Chloe was with her when she went"

"fuck, do you guys need me there?"

"she's going through a lot, but you enjoy your christmas, i'll try and get her to ring you if i can get her to cheer up a little"

"how's Emil"

"pretty much the same, won't speak a word to anyone, not even Jobe. to be fair were all devastated, we loved Shelley so much"

"i honestly don't know what to say, you think you can get her on the phone with me right now?"

"i can try" he says as he finds her

"Chloe" i say

i can hear her weeps through the phone

"love don't cry" 

"s-she's gone Mia"

"i know" i say as i begin to tear up again

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