Never Knew

Chapter 28- What a trip

Evelyn's POV

I felt microscopic under Jax's hard gaze, he was waiting for me to answer, and all I could do was stand there speechless. My heart jerked in my chest, and I couldn't make myself speak. It didn't help that I was half-naked in front of him. I hugged myself tightly, and I felt the goosebumps cover the entirety of my body. 

What he had said to me sounded like he was giving me some type of last chance, or was it a boundary, and I just wasn't used to those? He hadn't even mentioned having any type of feelings for me but that's the thing, he didn't need to. He had said so little and so much at the same time. 

"How do you feel?" I ask, attempting to waver the attention away from me. 

Jax is unmoved by my question, but his gaze softens, probably noticing my discomfort at being put at the center of a path-altering question. 

"I can show you better than I can tell you." He breathed. This response sent a wave of desire from my stomach to the center of my body. 

"But I won't until you speak up, and from the looks of it, it seems like you don't want to do much talking. Are you going to use the bathroom? We should get some sleep." He pressed his lips together, grabbed a change of clothes, and walked into the bathroom, leaving me standing there like an idiot. 

I had to sit on the bed because the moment itself felt surreal. I was shocked at how blatantly he had changed the subject. I wanted him to tell me first. I took off my bikini top while he was in the bathroom and grabbed a cute pajama set from my bag, it was kind of skimpy but that's how my pajamas were, so he'd have to deal with it. After putting it on I dried my hair as best as I could with one of the hotel towels.

I lay down on the right side of the bed as I speculate on his words and my feelings. I think I'm scared to let go of Ashton completely. I think if I decide to admit what I might feel for Jax out loud it could lead to something bigger than I could handle. Emotions that I'm not capable of managing. 

I hear the bathroom door open and for a second, I contemplate pretending like I'm already asleep, but that would be ridiculous. I glance at him and start rubbing my toes together, it's something I've always done to self-soothe. He's shirtless, wearing grey sweatpants that hang off his hips. Why are you doing this to me?

His eyes meet mine for a brief second, he undresses me with his eyes and presses his lips together and I stand up to go brush my teeth in the bathroom. I'm reminded of the time I asked him to sleep over, and I got toothpaste in my hair; we started laughing uncontrollably after that. 

I hear him sigh and I want to hear that sigh a million more times, but I want to listen to it by my ear this time as he breathes me in. I sigh as well in frustration not knowing what to do. The depth of the conversation we were having before he walked into the bathroom would've been so much more complex if we had finished it. 

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Jax's POV

She was jealous, I know what jealousy looks like and she was painted green with it. Evelyn was so hardheaded; she wouldn't even admit to that. 

I'm not going to wait around for you forever, wondering how you feel about me. 

But I lied to her, I would've waited a hundred years just for her to realize what I had realized such a long time ago. I know her, she was overcomplicating everything in her mind right now. I lay down on the bed after walking out of the bathroom. Unable to read her aside from knowing she was jealous. But that was also a lie, I knew she felt something.