What if, at some point in our friendship, even if just for a minute, you found yourself falling in love with me, only to quickly dismiss that feeling because you knew there was someone else I had feelings for at that time.
I have countless 'what ifs' swirling in my mind. I understand that I can't have you, but could I have just one day when your time is all mine? Just you and I. The more I converse with you, the stronger my desire for you becomes. And even though I can't be with you, avoiding you hurts even more. Speaking with you brightens my day. You make me feel lighter, and when I'm with you, the world's troubles fade away.
I wonder if you ever catch the longing in my eyes, the unspoken words that dance upon my lips when we meet. It's in the way my heart races as your laughter fills the air, and I find solace in your smile, a smile I know I can never truly call my own.
