Faded

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So because

I need an obsession,

I want to be

Head-over-heels in love

With you.

Even though deep inside,

I know I am not

And hopefully this yearning for you

The craving of your lips

(Is this attraction normal?)

Will one day fizzle out.

I know we will

Never happen,

And in films they say this and in the end,

It turns out nice

Everyone is happy

With their true love; 

But this is a world where people are real.

My story is being told through many ways.

Sometimes I  find myself

Just make it up.

Because falling in love would be

An intrepid adventure

But it’s never going to happen to me.

No one will ever read this,

But me.

People can't just fly away in real life.

I don't know what I'm fighting for,

Anymore.

I don't know why I am unhappy.

I want someone who

I can trust with my life-

Who accepts me for who I am

And likes that I don't seek attention,

But adore it all at the same time.

A boy who will talk to me,

And not ignore me.

Who makes the first move,

Because as long as I know where I stand

I will be okay.

I only want to be okay.

Here I am,

Writing about you again

At half 11

At night

Wanting but dreading sleep

But maybe I will

Meet you in my dreams,

Again and

Maybe you will tell me sweet things,

Or maybe we'll do more.

Be more.

Maybe we will be people

That we are not.

Who can sleep

When their mind is alive with

These heartbreaking, wonderful

Fascinations.

(found as an acting bookmark for Peter Pan)