Faded

xli

It looks like the rain has gone for good

and Will has gone with it.

He hasn't actually vanished

but we don't talk as much

and we don't see each other as often as we used to,

or even at all.

I think he's avoiding me

and maybe it's better that way,

at least for now.

The sky seems to agree with me

and is full of colours again.

the way it's supposed to be-

I have to say it's easier being faded

when the world is so bright and loud

and when every day is so full of the things Lauren wants to do with me,

like splashing each other by the side of Oscar River

and eating ice cream in the park

together.

She is avoiding Will, too-

I think she feels guilty

about the way she acts when she's around him

just like I feel guilty about the way I don't.

It's no surprise that when we're face to face

we both try to put aside the past and the future

and talk about the present

as if nothing else matters.

Still, there are moments in between

that she can't fill

when I can't help thinking about what could be

and what it is that I really want.

It's strange, or maybe not so strange,

that I always end up thinking of you in those moments,

your smile

and the few times you've looked at me

and the way it feels when you're close by.

I know you're part of the wrong crowd now

and I know you hurt Lauren before that

but I still wish for you even when there are no shooting stars to be claimed

and my mind always circles back to you

in the quiet seconds in between,

and when it does

I can't help thinking

that the most important things in life

happen in intervals

and spaces

and you and I are both so in-between

that once I've talked to you

(soon, I promise)

we might just have

a

chance

at

completing

each

other.

(found at a train station)

a/n:

My wonderful friend @wings_ wrote this.

I begged her to write me a chapter and she did. And this is the outcome and it is beautiful. I love it so much.

GO! read her stuff. It's as perfect as she is.

I love you all <3 and thank you wings_ for writing me a really really brilliant peice of art xxx