The Dark List [Larry Stylinson Fanfic]

Through Everything

''Louis

I look at him for one last time before we go on our separate ways. 'Bye.', I mouth to him. He smilles sadly, nods, and goes inside the car he's assigned in. I go inside the van, by the window, and all the boys go in after me.

Our car goes first. I didn't even bother looking back, so just I can see the car he's in, because I know well enough that it won't make much of a difference.

The car ride was silent. Or maybe they are whispering, but I didn't even care. I just want to be sad right now, even if it was really unnecessary. 

Niall, who's sitting beside me, nudged me, "We're here." I look outside, and there stood a small cabin. We took our bags and walked inside. It's bigger than what I expected. It only has one floor, but it's really spacious. "I call this room!", Zayn calls out, who was outside a room. "This is mine!", Niall calls out, too. "I can stay here, unless you want this room, Louis?", Liam asks me. "I can stay anywhere.", I tell him. He shrugs and walks inside the room. I walk towards the last room, near the back door. 

I go inside and put my bag down. It's enough room for me, I'd say. I lay down on the bed. I stared at the ceiling, and started singing Harry's cover of "Please Don't Let Me Go".

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Where do I begin?

Should I tell you

How bad I need you now, yeah

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Really, now? I wish I knew.

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You're underneath my skin

And I'm confused

My head is spinning all around, yeah

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If you really feel like this, then damn, I shouldn't have left you.

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I waited so long

I need to know, darling

What is on your mind?

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Um, I don't know. Part of me still do this because of the contract, but... No. I'm not possibly falling for him. Am I?

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Normally I try to run,

And I might even wanna hide

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True. Ever since, Kat, you've been playing the fields, and I don't want to be hurt like that too.

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But I never knew what I wanted

'Till I looked into your eyes

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I wish this is true.

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So am I in this alone?