somewhere over the rainbow ⌁ t.k

7.

( 2nd thoughts. )

three weeks later...

kth.
no visit, again.

i sigh, laying in the same bed for weeks is boring as hell. the doctor and nurse keep coming in, checking my ears a lot more than last week.

it's annoying but i honestly think i'm fine.

jungkook hasn't been seeing me lately. after jihyo left to go confess to jungkook, i've haven't heard about the two of them.. so i bet they're having the time of their lives together.

but i'm happy for them.. right?

jjk.
i watch as jihyo comes with the tray of food we ordered earlier, "finally, i'm starving!" she licks her lips placing the tray in front of me.

i smile and quickly start eating, jihyo does the same.

"this is good oppa, do you like it?" she giggles, food still in her mouth making me laugh.

"yes i do like it jihyo~" she smiles happily and continues chewing on her food.

i eat slowly and think..

me and jihyo aren't dating, i just.. don't feel right. the thought of dating jihyo sounds nice but my gut keeps telling me not to.

and what tae said to me, well in my dream.. it makes me think. like a lot it's starting to frustrate me.

why?

i've had a crush on tae, for years.

ever since middle school. when i met him, he was a angelic angel, so bright and pretty. but i had to stop because i knew he wouldn't like me that way, so eventually i moved on, tried to.

it's just, i don't know anymore.

the bright tae i used to know is gone, ever since i started becoming close friends with jihyo- it's like my little bright angel taetae was long gone.

he's gettin' bullied so it does not help.

i really don't know, i'm gonna go insane.

i can't even visit tae in the hospital no more, jihyo is always asking if we can hang out. i can't say no, i'm in love with her.

i moved on from tae, i love jihyo not tae.

right?

kth.
i'm starting to notice things.. i'm losing my hearing, i remember hearing the birds chirping in the morning but i can barely hear them now.

i'm really scared.

but i'm fine, i'm totally fine. jungkook should be here but he's not, it's okay! as long as he's happy!

i'm okay, i'm fine.

i'm not okay, i'm not fine.

i'm dying.

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hello! i'm back lovelies! sorry for updating late, my dad came home so i barely had any time on my phone, apologies! but ilysm! please take care of yourselves, bye!💙

~ author-nim, namsunshine🍃