Ethereal (COMPLETED)

22: Dead Leaves

I drive.

I drive and drive, not knowing where to go.

Why is it so hard?

And when I thought all the pain is over, it comes back rushing to me.

Like a wave that I cannot stop.

A wave that will drown me.

I passed by the park where she and I watched the sunset together.

I stopped the car and went outside.

The sun that she loves was now replaced by the moon.

Like how she replaced me.

I sat on the dewy grass under the tree.

The chilly air blew my hair, and leaves are starting to fall. It reminds me that autumn will be over soon and winter is coming.

But my life has been winter all the time since she left me.

I can't let my feelings out because I'm not good at such things.

So I just typed it down on my phone.

Fall like those dry leaves

Just falling without strength, my love

Your heart just goes far away

I can't catch you

I can't catch you anymore

I can't hold onto you

Those fallen leaves that look so insecure

Seem like they're looking at us

If I touch your hand, even if it's all at once

It seems like it'll all become crumbs

I only looked with the autumn wind

Your words and expressions that become cold at some point

I can see that our relationship is fading

An empty relationship like the autumn sky

An ambiguous difference compared to before

Today of all days, the much quieter night

One leaf left clinging to a branch

It's shattering, I see the end

Dead leaves becoming dried

The silence inside your aloof heart

Please don't leave me, crumbling like dead leaves

I want you to meet my eyes

I want the you that wants me again

Please don't leave me

Please don't fall

Never fall