dear beomgyu,

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dear beomgyu,

christmas of 2015 came.

i thought it was going to be my most memorable christmas but, well, it did. but not the way that i expected it to be memorable.

when i woke up, i saw how you flooded me with christmas greetings and stickers.

you told me that you have a chance to come back in manila in summer because your dad said he'll see to it.

you promised me you'll come back.

when i got home from church, the first thing that i saw was your call. i excitedly answered your call because i really wanted to hear your voice.

and you know what made me more excited?

you told me that you were coming to the philippines on new year. i literally screamed and rejoiced when i read your text message. i even called you to confirm if it wasn't a joke. you were with your brother when i video called you and he was the one who confirmed that you are coming back here. i was super happy that day. you never knew how happy i was that day.

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the whole christmas day, i was talking to you only. we never cut the call whatever happened. i didn't went out with daniel that day because i wanted to talk to you and plan about your short vacation here. daniel even threw a fit because of that.

he knew that we had a thing going on and i really didn't know if he was casually okay with that or what. he never reacted whenever i told him about us.

he would always tease me and say that you never confessed to me or you never made your feelings clear. i always got annoyed because i that was true. you never really told me that you like me. but i felt your feelings. i believed that i didn't need your confirmation. and maybe that was the stupidest thing i believed.

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when evening came, daniel's family went to our house to celebrate christmas dinner with us. we were still having a video call and i even made both of you and daniel say hello to each other without the glaring and snobbing. daniel even smiled at you. i was happy because i thought you'd get along.

i turned off the video call when my mom asked me to help in cleaning the kitchen and preparing for our dinner with daniel's family.

the whole time i was helping in house works, i was smiling. my mom even thought i was losing my mind because i was not complaining for whatever she was asking me to do.

who wouldn't be happy? i'm gonna see you in a week after four years!