His Little Bride

You Ruin My Dreams ||10||

It was our last night here, in Delhi. Tomorrow in the morning, we'll leave for Canada.

To be honest, I didn't want to go. Living alone with Karthik, scared me to no extent. Not that I was scared of him, but I was scared of loneliness! And as a matter of fact, I knew that being alone with him, will only make me lonelier!

After two consecutive failures at my tries to trouble Karthik, I hadn't done anything else. I need to think. About everything.

He loves someone else.

I don't know what to think of this. To be honest, right now it doesn't affect me. But thinking about future, it scares me to no extent.

How does your future look when you're married to a man who loves another woman?

Screwed!

I'll have to figure something out. Soon.

"Dinner is ready. Aunty is calling you." I said to Karthik as I entered into the study room.

He was engrossed in his work, as always.

I hadn't talked to him, unless necessary, after that day. Neither did he try. Things were super quiet between us.

"Yeah, coming" he said, lowly.

I turned and was leaving the room when he stopped me.

"Done with your packing?"

I looked at him.

"Yes. Almost."

He nodded and we walked to the dining area.

"So, did you like it here with us, Mira?" Pramod Uncle asked.

We were all having our last dinner together.

"Yes Uncle, very. Felt just like home" I told him genuinely.

"Well this is your home, beta." Aunty said and I smiled.

"And how's my son treating you?" She asked with a suppressed smile, while looking between me and Karthik expectantly.

I looked at Karthik. He seemed unfazed.

How can he always be so ignorant?!

I looked back at Kajal Aunty.

I wish I could tell you, Aunty.

"Good" I only said. Trying to give her a genuine smile.

After dinner I went back to the room which was supposedly mine and Karthik's. Sighing, I looked around the room. In a few hours, I'll not be here. I don't know what's waiting for me. If it'll be better from here or worse. Probably worse, I think.

Shifting from Mumbai to Delhi and Delhi to Canada, my whole life has changed. I don't know what to expect anymore. I don't know what to think anymore.

Thinking, anyway, isn't good for me. The panic and anxiety I get from it, sometimes become unbearable. And once you start to think about something, it's very hard then to stop!

Stop thinking about it then, Mira.

I closed my eyes and gathered all my will.

Tomorrow is a new day! I am going to a new place! My life doesn't depend on Karthik. I am going to live for myself and have a lot of fun! This marriage doesn't decide my future. My approach towards my life, does.

A small smile played on my lips, reminding me that my happiness is my responsibility. I do not depend on anyone for it! I have taken care of myself, and I will. Always!