BROKEN

THRITY FIVE

Weeks had passed, I had been discharged from the hospital, I had begun to see a therapist once again,she was as useless as my mother, she said I was a spoiled attention seeking brat in the first session. It was either this or back to clearminds. I had to choose my battles wisely. Mother was keeping me from embarrassing our family anymore. Devan was still on the run, I pressed charges against him.

A loud car honk pulled me out of my day dreaming reverie, I was going back to school today. For once I was estactic going to school, I wanted to claw my way out from this house. I wasn't allowed out anywhere ever since I was discharged. Josephine thought I'd spread more lies about her boyfriend. It pains me so much that the one who gave me life failed to believe me. Shaking the pitiful thoughts away, I picked up my bag and my new phone before dashing out of the house to keiran Ford F150.

Malvolio was already seated in the back seat when I got there, both of them had gotten close recently. "Lulu, how are you " I smiled at both of them
"I'm fine guys " we talked as keiran drove us to school. My anxiety spiked up when I saw the familiar gates to Pegasus High
"Are you fine lotus?" Malvolio asked.
I wasn't okay, I was dreading seeing everyone and Ivan especially. Ever since our face off at the hospital where I said somethings I had deeply regretted. I hadn't seen him, I guess all the twisted games I played with him just further proved his point that I was SELFISH AND PRETENTIOUS, I remembered his bristle angry voice when he told me to have a nice life, I had pushed all the buttons to drive him further away. I turned to Malvolio "I'll be find Mal" he nodded and we climbed out of the car , more like I jumped out because of my short legs.

I hiked my backpack higher as I felt the extent of my peers eyes on me. No matter how much they had seen me, I guess I still looked like a unicorn parading it's self infront of various hunters, awaiting my doom. We stood at the school steps because Malvolio was waiting for Aurelia. We just stood there talking and laughing, mostly they talked and I listened. My eyes were still wide open searching for a familiar intense yellowish Hazel eyes. More to my dismay, I missed him but he hated me now, I had crossed a line with him. I knew how much assumptions hurt people but I assumed that he was just another spoiled rich boy but if I had just opened my eyes and stopped wallowing in my pain for a few seconds, I would have seen the pain that was behind his eyes as well. But I was blind and judgemental to believe that no one had issues of their own, some more than others.
I still wondered why he was kicked out from one Foster home to another. There was more to the enigma Ivan vikor than I'd like to admit, the one person who saw Me bare and vulnerable and also tried to help but ended up getting the burnt of my bitterness.

"Lotus,are you okay ?" I snapped out of my reverie,  the boys were looking at me worried
"Yeah I'm fine, I just spaced out a ..." I was cutoff by a strong purr of a red porsche 911 gt3 rs

All the breath was knocked out of my lungs when I saw a familiar mop of jet black hair that was now longer and tinted a light shade of gold at the tips matching his vibrant eyes. It should be barred to look this good. His white dress shirt was tucked into his blackslacks, his feet was clad in black Christian louboutains

and he was wearing a long black coat that swept behind him as he walked. Overall he looked like someone God had sat down to create. I wondered where his girlfriend Analise was since both are inseparable. He walked towards the school with a powerful gait oblivious to the stares of boys and girls around, I stood straighter when I saw him walking towards the steps. I knew he would feel my gaze on his skin but he seemed oblivious to my gaze, not a step faltering or a hair out of place as he walked past me, he didn't even glance nor look at me. I almost crumbled on the spot, my heart was hurting  somehow his words didn't hurt like him ignoring me. I turned back and watched his coat sweep behind him as he walked in the hallway

"Ivan mostly certainly knows his cars, I have to say" keiran was staring at Ivan's porche with stars in his eyes
"Yeah, he does" I meekly replied, I was curious because I didn't see Analise, she is always attached to him at the hip
"Where's Analise,?it's strange not seeing them together" I questioned
"Ohh, yeah . You don't know they broke up a few weeks back" my eyes widened
I mean I wasn't sad that they broke up more like estactic but I knew it was never going to work between us . He wouldn't even look at me when  he passed,  I would kill for one of his looks, even If its an angry one.

Keiran and I walked into the school, when we saw Aurelia walking to Malvolio, I saw Ivan leaning on his locker typing on his phone, he didn't even glance up once keiran and I stood infront of my locker opposite him.
"I'll see you in class whitehead "
"Yeah "
I turned and faced my locker, immediately I opened it something fell out, I bent down and picked up the scrunchie that Ivan had held hostage. He really didn't want to have anything to do with me anymore
I peeked at him through the mirror, he just walked away from me

The lotus and Ivan story had ended before it even started.