After Everything

Im the Jealous Type

(Alison's POV)

The clock read

10:24 PM

Emily was crawled up on her side of the bed, asleep. She fell asleep a couple of hours ago. We didn't cuddle at all, in fact our skins aren't even touching at the moment. I still couldn't get my mind to shut down so I could rest my eyes. Seeing Shane once again brought back memories from Texas but a certain memory keeps flashing in my mind.

Flashback

I was cuddling with Amy when Lauren pulled Amy away and took her downstairs. Lauren has been teasing and bullying me since I got here. Amy said she would talk to Lauren but I'm not sure if she'll listen.

"Just because you're fucking the new kid doesn't mean I have to give her a special treatment!" I over hear Lauren yell at Amy from downstairs

"Come on just go easy on Alison, she's been through a lot. You could even say she was a survivor" Amy pleaded

"A survivor?" Lauren chuckled

"Really? Like that bitch has heavier problems than I do" she snapped

"Lauren you don't know what she's going through" Amy whispered

"No, she doesn't know what I'm going through"

"You're intersex. Big deal" Amy sarcastically said. Finally a secret I could use against her.

"Hey Amy the pizza guy is here" I walked towards them and Amy left me alone with Lauren.

"Look I may be new, but I know all of your secrets" I spat

"What do you want?" Lauren asks

"You're a dude"

"What are you talking about" Lauren snapped

"I know you're intersex. You probably have a dick or something. I wonder how expensive the surgery was. Is it fun being intersex?" I glared at her

"You inconsiderate fuck. I didn't chose to be intersex! I was born this way!"

"What?"

"You're talking about transgender, that's when you transition from a different gender. Intersex is an abnormal condition, not a gender. You don't chose to be intersex. If you want to have a penis or something you'll need surgery. And it's called being trans" She snapped

"You think I wanted to be intersex? My body doesn't produce the hormones I need. So i have to take pills to replace them! And you know what els? I can't have kids!"

"You're gonna make fun of me for having a condition? Fine go ahead, why don't you just call a retarded person stupid while you're at it, because you're basically doing that to me!" She ran out of the house and a couple seconds  later Shane comes in with a shocked impression

"Did you just make the biggest bitch of TEXAS, cry?" He laughed. I stood there quiet not wanting to say anything. IM SO FUCKING STUPID. I thought to myself

End of Flashback

That memory is keeping me up. I feel so guilty, and I didn't even apologize for it. A couple of minutes later my eyes began to feel heavy. Finally. I thought to myself. I could finally go to sleep. As my eyes start to rest, My feet were starting to feel cold again. And I remembered that Emily doesn't have extra blankets.