How would you feel? (Harry Styles) || COMPLETED

86. Let It Snow

February 18th 2017, Salzburg

"It's taking too much time," Simon stated, "it was supposed to be already finished by now,"

"I had no deadline, did I?" I asked, "I'm telling you that what I've produced up to now is not enough... I don't feel like the lyrics I sing represent me or my feelings, the melodies don't work..."

"Everybody said your music's more than fine!" he replied,

"I don't really care what the people say..." I said,"I just don't want my album to be shit just because I haven't released anything in a bit,"

"What are you trying to say?" he asked, panic clear in his voice

"I'm trashing everything that I've worked on for the past four months and, I guess I'm starting all over" I finally confessed

"No," he seriously replied, "there's no way I'm allowing that"

"It's either that or nothing, Simon" I said

"Are you serious?" he raised his voice, "people expect you to drop at least a single in the next few weeks"

"Who said I'm not?" I snorted, "I feel very inspired at the moment... I'm telling you a single is going to be ready very soon... I had this idea,"

"No more ideas from you, Jade" Simon replied, "you've already disrupted my organization"

"My ideas have always been good for my image, haven't they?" I sassily asked

"I'm all ears," he frustratedly said,

"I already know my album is going to tell a story so every song is going to be connected to the others," I explained, "and I want to make a video for each song... in a way, I want to tell the story from my character's point of view"

"You know how much it'll cost?" Simon shook his head,

"I'm making you earn money, aren't I?" I asked, "I'm sure this album will work off whatever cost you'll pay for these videos,"

"How can you be so sure?" I could see him rolling his eyes even if we were on the phone,

"I have this feeling," I shrugged, "it's going to be huge"

"You're too confident," he said, "you can't be sure and we can't risk it,"

"Simon, this is something no one has ever done!" I ran my fingers through my hair, feeling very annoyed, "people will love it, trust me, please"

"I'll let you do it," he sighed

"Yes!" I squealed,

"Wait, wait," Simon interrupted me, "I'll let you do it if you assure me it'll be ready by May,"

"Album and videos?" I asked

"Yes," he nodded,

"Fine," I agreed, feeling very nervous but excited at the same time,

"Alright, start working now and I'll see you in about a month so we can review what you got," he said

"I won't disappoint you," I hopefully replied, "see you soon," I said before hanging up. I felt very happy about starting this new project, even if I knew I couldn't fuck up. Truth to be told, in these past few weeks, I had finally felt ready to really write about Harry and I, about my real feelings. I didn't want my album to be heartbreaking. I was in love and I wanted the world to know. After hurting, I was finally the happiest girl alive and I wanted my lyrics to express that.

"Good morning, love" Harry sweetly kissed me as I turned around and noticed he had woken up. Still to this day, seeing him in bed, half asleep, was one of my favorite sights ever, "who was on the phone?"