23/07/2017
There's this boy
I was once in love with;
I lived for him and
I died a thousand deaths for him,
Maybe that's why
We could never be together
I put him before everything and everyone,
He became the number one priority
But he never told me what he felt;
Maybe he was just living in the moment
Enjoying the attention,
The love poems
And the tears cried over him,
But he forgot i wouldn't be there waiting on him;
Desperate for his love forever
He was honest and then he wasn't
But he wasn't known for being a liar either;
Just a boy who was famous for playing with the hearts of the ones
Who gave it to him,
But when i looked at him
He looked at me like it was him who was the one in love;
Like it was him who had spent sleepless nights
Crying at the edge of his bed
With nothing and no one to give him comfort except
The warmth of his pillows,
The embrace of his covers;
Like it was him who although wasn't religious
Still got on his knees
Each and every day;
In front of God and hoped
That his tears and blood were worth it all;
Like it was him who was ready
For any obstacle to befall him;
Any test to try him
Just because he believed
His love was real
I was in love with this boy
Who caught my breath
His gaze was like a hypnosis;
Transfixed in the moment
Mesmerising each other's emotions that flowed through
As we held the connection
Unknowingly,
His chocolate brown eyes
Contained the world;
Looking at him was like seeing your whole universe,
Made just for you and him
Forgetting a past and future ever existed
And just drowning in the presence of the other being,
I thought was my
Forever
I was in love with this boy
Who caused me more pain
Than happiness;
And although it was his eyes that got me the first time
It didn't hurt any less to see him
Tied up with someone else,
He made me feel all kinds of sad
And i had so much of sadness that he caused;
It left no room for any other word to even fit anywhere,
I thought of this boy almost everywhere i went
He was 'It' for me and he was
The only one i had made myself believe I needed;
I lost track of reality
I forgot my priorities
Maybe that's why we could never be together
And apart of me still loves this boy
This boy; who i still care for after everything we've been through
This boy; who maybe doesn't deserve my love at all.
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When There Was Me And You | Part 1
PoetryYou were my First Love; toxic, unhealthy for my state. But i learned Love from you; you taught me what it meant to spend nights crying at the edge of my bed and how it felt to really smile. ************************* This is a collection of poetry...