|BOYSHIT| jaden hossler

REALITY

*Madelyn's pov*

I didnt wanna see or be with anybody i i wanted to be alone and just think about everything 

I went to my spot that i go to when i am feeling down 

I thought about everything that has happened between me and jaden 

Ik i am wrong but he never actually talked to me he never told me he knew he just revenged without even trying to talk to me about it not even hinting that he knew 

I didnt even think about my kiss with that dude after it didnt cross my mind ,not once 

Because i didnt mean it and i love jaden 

I didnt even know he was cheating as a "revenge" 

I was too hurt after the break up everybody saw that and thats why they took my side not jadens cause he cheated 

I never said anything bad about jaden to anyone 

Even tho for the last months of our relationship he wasnt the jaden i fell in love with he was weird with me but still i never fell out of love cause I AM really in love with him i tried to love somebody else after the break up but i just couldnt 

It always him 

But he hates me 

He said it 

He called me a slut 

And a bitch 

And in his song said im his memory 

Now ofc he's talking shit about me to the girls and sway and everybody 

Jaden hates me so much rn 

he is stubborn he will never let me explain he will just hate me more and more 

If only he trust me and believe OR EVEN hear what i want to say 

But he will never let me 

The only thing i can do rn is call amy and tell her everything maybe she will understand and make him too 

I pulled my phone out and called amy 

A:" MADELYN ! I miss you so much !! How are u ?" She said i could tell she was happy when i called from her voice 

I smiled a little to myself 

Amy hasnt been only "my boyfriends mother" but she always acted like my own 

M:"i-im g-good " 

A:"aww no u are not what happened ?" 

M:"i w-want u to hear everything i will say and please amy please talk to jaden and make him understand everything p-please" 

A:"ofc dw baby what happened ??" 

M:"before me and jaden broke up we were at party i had many drinks that day like way too many  that I couldn't really hold myself up ..i was trying to find jaden then a guy who was wearing like same jadens outfit was there and me and him kissed i didnt mean to kiss him back but I thought it was jaden at first - i-i pulled away quickly and then slapped the guy and then went to find jaden and told him i wanted to leave he was kinda weird but i didnt think much of it I thought maybe he is not its just the alcohol on me making me overthink stuff then Now jaden told me he knew about the kiss and that i cheated and thats why he revenged with cheating on me with mads but i didnt cheat i swear amy i swear i didnt mean it i love ur son way too much to cheat on him or do anything to hurt him purposely i love him so much i still do but he hates me he said to me that i am the reason of everything bad that happened in his life and he said im a bitch and a slut idk whats up with him he wouldnt ever say that to me the jaden i know the jaden i met and fell inlove with never said anything near that to me it hurts so mucb cause im actually still in love with him but he just made it clear he hates me ,he isnt even letting me explain he only sees me as a cheater i-i-called u cause i k-know u are th-the only one who will listen t-to me and believe me and t-try to make him understand that,i-i-ik jaden wont believe me b-but at least he will hear what i wanted to say from u cause he will never let me ,i know he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore a-and thats fine i will be out of his life for good " i said through the phone crying 

A:"shh calm down shh dont cry please if he doesnt wanna hear u and he doesn't trust u then its his loss , yes he is my son but he should give u a chance to explain he cant just be like that to u without hearing what u have to say ,please dont cry ,i promise u i will tell him everything u said"

M:"t-thank y-you " 

A:"of course ,where are u ?" 

M:"h-home" i lied

A:"not alone?"

M:"n-no dont worry" i lied again 

A:"okay good rest and dont think of anything that happened just rest" 

M:"will do" 

A:"bye" 

M:"b-bye" then hanged up 

I started sobbing again 

I couldnt help it 

I feel fucked up 

I am fucked up 

No one can feel my actual pain 

Im suffering inside 

I stood up and took a decision a very bad one ..but the only thing That will make me rest 

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