|BOYSHIT| jaden hossler

REALITY

*madelyn's pov* 

Josh tried to talk to jaden but he just said he was okay and didn't tell him whats up 

I decided to try and talk to him again maybe he would tell me this time whats up 

We just got back home ,the whole ride was just silence 

I want to shower but theres only one bathroom that is working rn so i will see if Jaden wants tp shower and if yes then im just gonna shower later ir tomorrow 

M:"u gonna shower?" 

J:"nah u can if u want" 

I showered and got dressed then went  out jaden was on bed scrolling through his phone 

I got into bed next to him cuddling up with him 

He put his phone down and put his arms around me 

Kissed my head taking a very deep breath 

J:"i love you" 

M:"i love you" 

He kissed the top of my head 

M:"jae" 

J:"mhm?" 

M:"you know u can always talk to me ?" 

J:"yes" 

M:"then can u please do ? Don't tell me nth is going on because ik there is " i said sitting up on bed 

He did the same looking down 

I picked up his head 

M:"hey I promise u im gonna try to help u just tell me " 

J:"im afraid of losing u Madelyn i dont want to lose you im afraid i do sth stupid to lose u ,u are so good , so rare I would never find someone like u ever theres no one like u im afraid you would just leave me cause what if im not a good father or a good boyfriend enough for u and our daughter i dont think i will be anyways cause i ruined everything the moment i forced myself on u i fucking hate myself for it ..i-i was so stupid i made u hate me i change ur life 180 degrees by 1.getting forced for sex 2. Ending up having a kid , something u didnt want for probably 6 more years im so sorry i swear i am and I promise to always try to make it up to u madelyn i swear im sorry i cant stop feeling guilty since that day i fucking hate me since that day" he said now sobbing 

I pulled him into a tight hug and massage his head to calm him down 

M:"hey hey jae no hey calm down, calm down you wont lose me ever cause i cant love nobody else and u are an amazing boyfriend and im sure u will be an amazing father ,what u dod before was..well bad but .. everybody makes mistakes i forgive u i promise i do and yes u changed my life but for the better , like look at us now we live together in this amazing house and we are having a daughter in less than a month im sure its gonna be so much fun lets look at the bright part " 

He kept crying while hugging me 

M:"oh no my dada is weak how would he take care of me " i said in a funny baby voice acting as if im little baby 

He chuckled 

M:"hey now look at me " i said pulling him off of me to look at me 

M:"promise me to talk to me whenever u feel down again and to stop overthinking about our relationship and lets both of us promise to stop thinkimg about what happened in the past and just focus on us and our future promise ?" I said holding up my pinky 

J:"promise " he linked his pinky with my 

Then we laid down on bed again 

M:" i love u jae " 

J:" i love u more " 

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That was pretty cute