Hessa Baby's After All

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

Hardin PoV:

The taxi drives off around the corner and I feel my heart shatter, physically shatter. It feels like I've just left them. Abandoned them... and for what? Money?.
What kind of father will emery think I am, this is six months... by the time I'm officially back emery will be almost 7 months old ... she would be eating solid food and I won't see her as a baby again.
This is ridiculous, I can't possibly leave her. And Tess, i love her so much. I know she is doing this because she thinks it's the right thing to do... but not like this.I need Tessa. God what the FUCK am I doing!
How on earth is this the right decision, I'm not even 10 minutes away from our house and I miss everything...Tessa, emery just our life.
This is so stupid. Why am I still doing this my new family is at home where I should be. But I'm not. Because of some bullshit "money".

Tessa PoV:

I close the door and try to calm emery down she is in hysterics having a breakdown and I feel so helpless just holding her and gently bouncing her in my arms.
"Shhhh it's okay baby.....I.....I'm....."
I break down too.
oh god what have I done.
I need Hardin...I need him so much.
What kind of mother will emery think I am, it feels like I've sent Hardin away and for what?
This is a pain I haven't felt in ages.
The kind that isn't fixed until replaced by what was lost.
I sit on the floor and do the one thing I think to do.
Breastfeed emery, she's so tiny, does she know hardin's gone?.
She must do, she wouldn't be in hysterics otherwise. My baby just wants her dad.
"I'm sorry baby, I don't know why I thought this would be a good idea, I love you so much and feel so lost. It's us em. us." I let that sink in.
6 months without Hardin.
Yeah sure we have arranged visits back and forth every couple of weeks. But what if crucial things happen inbetween, emery will grow before his next visit for sure.
I look down at emery, my small baby, she has her eyes closed but her long lashes stained wet from tears. How could I do this? I ask myself again because truly... how could I?. Worst part is how can I tell Hardin I need him home. He could be so happy with this experience for him I know he didn't want to leave but now he has he could be really excited, is this still Hardin we're talking about? My subconscious butts in again. I let out a small airy laugh the type that sounds like a deep breath. He's no doubt changed from the "bad boy" type he was, but excited about being away from us... I really don't know if he would feel that.. but how do I know?
I don't.
Why?
Because he isn't here for me to tell.

I rest my head against the wall behind me and let silent single tears roll down my cheeks, carefully being mindful of emery below me.
I take a deep staggered breath in.
I'm broken.
And I need him home.

Authors notes——-/——/——-/——-/——/——/

Hello everyone can I start by saying HAPPY FUCKING 2021 !!! 🥳🥂🥳
Sorry for the short chapter another one coming tomorrow.😍
I have a lot of things written and planned out for this story and my other one... which I know is not after related but it is based around the type of love they have and the more emotional side of that... there are 2 chapters already written so if u are bored like me give them a read.
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