Checkmate {Spencer Reid}

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You're going to hate me at the end of this chapter... I'm sorry my loves!

This all came out of nowhere. Spencer walked out of the bathroom he was just locked in and looked at me, and I couldn't help but laugh, him quickly joining in, I think we were both kind of in shock of our situation. I mean we had just admitted we love each other and the next day my boss comes in and tells me he has feelings for me? While Spencer is 10 feet away. "What am I gonna do?" I say after taking a breath, Spencer sitting next to me.

"I'm guessing you heard the whole conversation?" He nodded, "Walls here are pretty thin" Okay.

"What do you want to do? It's your choice Fiona."

"This isn't the bachelorette Spence, what are we? I need to know what you want to be so I know whether or not this is worth it." I met Spencer's gaze, his eyes full of uncertainty. "What?"

"You know I love you, I know you love me. But what I don't know, is what all of this means. Do you want a future with me? Do you see one with me? We may not have known each other for the longest time but I don't want to get hurt." I looked at the floor not wanting to see his face when he says this was a one time thing, "I can't see a future without you Fiona, but whatever you want to say to Hotch is your choice. I don't want to hold you back."

"Hold me back? I don't see Hotch as anything but a boss Spence. I need to tell him that." I say, cupping his face in my hands, softly pecking his lips. "Do you need me there with you?" I shook my head, "It's alright, I can do this by myself Spencer."

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The jet ride was... different than usual. The air was full of awkward tension and the team could tell something was up, Hotch was more quiet than usual and me and Spencer sat far away from each other as to not raise suspicion, I had to spend my time on the plane listening to Rossi brag about how he's going to cook pasta for his mistress when we get back. Don't get me wrong I was happy Rossi was finally getting some but I missed sitting close to Spencer, we stole glances here and there but I couldn't stop thinking about what I was going to say to Hotch. How am I even supposed to respond to something like this? Has anyone even been in this situation?

As we got to the BAU everyone headed to their desk to finish up their paperwork as I stared at my own, the words blurring into random squiggles on my page as the phone on my desk rang, "Agent Summers" I say automatically, "Stop overthinking" A familiar and handsome voice says, "Spencer?" I look towards his desk and see him already looking at me, and as his lips move, the voice on the phone continues, "Remember how I said you get this cute look on your face when you overthink?"

"Yeah?"

"I can see from a mile away you're getting worried about Hotch. Just relax, you got this Summers. Now go!" He hung up and I rolled my eyes at him, getting up and heading towards Hotch's office, knocking on the door.

"Come in"

Opening the door, I peak my head in to see him working on his own paperwork, "Hello sir.."

"Fiona, have a seat"

I sat in front of him, fiddling nervously with my fingers, "About what you said at the hotel"

"Don't worry about it."

"I'm sorry?"

"I know you may not feel the same way about me, because the way I feel about you is the way you feel about Reid." I couldn't help but let my jaw drop, "What?"

"I saw the small glances on the plane, and when he called you a couple minutes ago, the look on your face showed how much you care and appreciate him. Plus I overheard him in your room after I closed the door."

He heard Spencer in my room? You've got to be kidding me, I feel terrible. "I'm so sorry sir, I never meant for you to find out like this, I never planned to fall in love with someone I work with. And I definitely don't want to hurt you, of course I care about you, I care about everyone on this team. But I don't love you sir... I'm sorry."

He brought his hand up, "No Fiona, you shouldn't have to apologize for not having feelings, it's not something you can control. I'm happy for you and Spencer, he deserves someone like you, caring, intelligent, and beautiful. Just don't let it affect your work relationship."

His response didn't really surprise me, it was a Hotch response, I respected him even more now. I felt bad, that was a given, but as I excused myself, I felt myself rushing down the steps of the bau and down to Spencer's desk. "What did he say-" I cut him off and crashed my lips onto his, I heard a few gasps, a whistle that was deficiently from Morgan, and a couple of cheers from behind me as Spencer eagerly returned the kiss.

"I love you Spencer"

He pulled back and wrapped his arms around me, giving me the warmest hug yet, "I love you too Fiona.." He kissed me once more before hugging me again, nuzzling his head into my neck. I forgot how good of a hugger he was, it always filled me with contentment.

And that's how he made me feel, forever happy.