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♡ My heart just raced as Megumi slid the door closed behind us to the living room. I picked at the pads of my fingers listening to him approach the couch I sat on, the tv off, it was just us, his sister still hospitalized. "Are you hungry?" He leaned over the back of the couch to ask in my right ear, I jumped a little, flustered. What am I so nervous about? "Chiyo." "Im not hungry..." I glance over to look at his face next to mine, I knew blush painted my face pink by the way he laughed a little. "Look at you..." He leaned closer, and looked down at my lips, "Can I..?" "Mhm..." I close my eyes and Megumi kissed me lightly, innocently, as if to reassure me nothing else will happen. "We should probably talk about what is making you so nervous. Am I moving too fast?" He drew back, circling around the couch so he would be sat next to me. My skin warming as he sat next to me, looking concerned. "I have just never been in a relationship before...so I don't know what couples do..." Though I was truthful about never having a boyfriend...I knew well what couples did because of dramas I would watch. What they did made me nervous. "You don't have to worry about what other couples do Chiyo. We don't have to be like them. I only want what you will give. I will never push you for anything, you don't even have to kiss me if you don't like it." No. I loved when he kisses me... Im just scared about what it could lead too... "I want to keep kissing you." I stuttered, he gave me a look like he didn't believe me. "Chiyo, don't lie for my sake. I wouldn't be upset."
"I am being honest.." "When you trail off, you are unsure." But I am not unsure. I want to kiss him. I like it. "Megumi." I reach out, wrapping my arms around his shoulders, pulling myself up, meeting his mouth with mine. My heart hammered in my chest, I swear I could feel his heartbeat against mine too. His hands shaking as he pressed them on the sides of my stomach, steadying my body over his... If this doesn't show him I'm not lying, I don't know what will. I pull back a little to take in his face. He was surprised. I memorized that look. I hope I can surprise him more. "I like kissing you Megumi." "I...believe you now.." He averted his eyes, I focused on his restless touch on my sides. How his fingers strummed and gripped the fabric lightly. How his breathing was quiet but labored. How his eyes avoided mine. I liked seeing Megumi off guard. It made me feel a little powerful. "What's wrong?" I ask, He shook his head a little, still not looking at me. "Im okay." "Look at me then." Where did this confidence come from all of a sudden? "Chiyo-" "Kiss me." I interrupt him, and he looks at me with wide eyes. I was nervous, just not as much as before. "Please Chiyo..If we continue-" "If we continue?" I tilt my head slowly. "...then I'll want more..."
Him admitting that excited a small part of me. On the other hand it brought my nerves crashing down again, my fingers trembled as I slid them into his hair, sitting on his lap. "It is normal to want more." I say slowly, He nods, meeting my eyes. I started to nibble on my bottom lip. "What...kind of more?" "Let's just...I can handle it. We don't need to talk about that anytime soon." I wanted to know if he meant sex. I didn't want to assume. But he is a guy... And his arousal is very physical. I could...feel it.. And the fact I could make him want me in more ways made my core squeeze in excitement, in anticipation. "We are a month apart...birthday wise..." I start. "Yeah.." His hands shook lightly on my hips. "For my eighteenth birthday in a year...will you show me what more you want..?" He just nods, his face red. "Do you want to eat now..? Please say yes.." Megumi looked away from me, I found my eyes landing on his red neck, his Adam's apple shifting up and down. His breathing was shaky. And I liked seeing him this way a lot... "I like you...so much Megumi." I kissed his neck once. Innocently. And he covered his mouth with one of his hands, and gently pushed my shoulder back with his other. "Chiyo please..get off..."
I do as he asks, Did I do something wrong? Megumi got up quickly, leaving me there on the couch alone. I waited there for him for almost an hour... I must have done something wrong. "Megumi, are you mad at me?" I look over the couch and call out to him. He was in his bedroom, the door shut. "I like you a lot Chiyo..." He called back, his voice breaking. "What did I do..?" "Nothing wrong. Im just...I needed a little distance." His door opened and his hair was wet, "Can I take a shower too?" I get up and come up to him, he leans down and presses a kiss to the top of my head. "Of course you can Chiyo. I will have food ready by the time you finish." -
