40. The way I loved you.

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☆Arhaan's pov ☆

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☆Arhaan's pov ☆

Getting out of the car, I had only thought in my mind.

How fucked up can this day get?
After the very informative talk I had with my father, all I could think about was 'Do I really fuck everything up?'

I know that he's words doesn't mean shit but there is still this one hidden part inside of me that wants validation. That one part who wants the approval that all the effort I'm doing is not going to wane.

And sometimes it's really tiring.

Tilting my head up, I look at the darkened sky. Raindrops soaking through my clothes, Each drop felt like a heavy blow against my body.

"Arhaan? Are you even listening?" Even though the sound of the rain hitting the pavement was loud, constant drumming in my ears, her voice managed to not drown out among other noises.

There she is, my soft solitude in shades of grey.

I know she isn't happy about this whole rushed up leaving idea, but I did it for her safety. Who knows what my father would do after all he said about trésor on the phone.

I know I am the worst person for her right now, but I know she'll understand it. After all in past few days our 'relationship' is much more stronger than before.

Her hair drenched and matted against her face, she looked....angry.

Like really angry.

"Oh so you really are ignoring me? First you randomly dictate that we are going back home, taking decisions that should've been mutual. Arhaan you didn't even asked about my opinion, you know maybe I wanted to stay. But I guess It really doesn't matter. My decisions, my opinions doesn't matter right?" She rants out, hands balled into tight fists, jaw clenched in frustration as she looked at me. My hope dying with each word uttered out of her mouth.

Maybe I can explain her the situation, I mean she'll understand it.

Right?

"I-inayah I just-

"No you will not talk right now, maybe sometimes you should leave the sour attitude of yours behind and listen to someone else for once. "

"I just can't take it anymore!" She exclaimed, her voice rising with each word. "It's like no matter what I do, someone else is always there to make decisions for me. It's suffocating, it's infuriating, it's just...just not fair!"

"I'm tired of being pushed aside, of being told what to do and how to do it. I have a voice, I have opinions, and dammit, I have a right to make my own choices! I'm not a child anymore, I'm not some puppet to be controlled by someone else's strings! I really thought that you are different Arhaan, but I guess I was wrong. I really never mattered to you, it was all fake. Just one of your another facades."

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