I feel myself unraveling when I think about her
I can't explain something I don't understand
How did I let this get out of hand?
I shut my eyes and try to get to sleep but the darkness crowds me
She's at school
Well done Chris
She's 18
Gold star Chris
She's going to leave for uni soon
Double points for you here Chris
She's going to leave for uni in the next couple months
She's going to leave me like my mum left me
The bitterness and resentment slinks onto my skin but I try and shake it off
I love her
But the one thing that loves you can destroy you
I refuse to be destroyed by another woman
Not again
Tears begin welling up in my eyes as the darkness becomes claustrophobic
The sheer terror and trepidation of abandonment doesn't leave me
Somewhere in the hollow darkness I feel my heart splintering
What do I do when I know she's not here to stay?
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L O L I T A ' S National Anthem (COMPLETED ✔️)
סיפור קצרLolita - noun ❝ A sexually precocious young girl ❞ National Anthem - noun ❝ A rousing or uplifting song identified with a particular group, body, or cause❞ Because there's nothing more dangerous, thrilling and heart wrenching than being a narcissist...
