Loved You First- A Larry Fanfic

Chapter 23

Authors Note- Sorry this is later than usual. I've been really busy this week, I'm leaving school so we had prom and trips and things so sorry. Hope it was worth the wait :) I'm off for 6 weeks now though, so I'll try to update more

Also, I've had a few people tell me (you know who you are) that cottages don't have an upstairs. Well this is a special cottage so it does, ok.

Harry's POV

Have you ever been surrounded by people but felt so alone? That's how I feel.

That's how I feel everyday.

No one knows me as well as Louis and without him, I block the world out. I don't think he fully realises that I need him.

I can hear Liam talking to me, trying to put my mind off things but his voice is just a blur in my head. I just nod along, pretending to listen.

What happens if we can't find him? Once we're there how are we supposed to know where to look? What happens if we do find him? Do we come back home...just for Modest to do something again?

No.  

I'm not letting them do anything more. If Louis can't stand up for himself I'll have to do it for the both of us. They've ruined what was supposed to be the best time of my life. Just because of a boy, who I love.

I remember, around a month ago, just after the accident, I rang management. I didn't tell Louis, I knew he'd get paranoid. I wanted to know why me and Louis couldn't be together, I wanted to know what the big deal about it was. They had told me, the bands publicity comes before our emotions. That we're role models and our fans wouldn't support gays. It would crush the fans dreams, knowing they could never be with us.

Losing a few fans doesn't compare to hiding, having everyone lie to you, being used for money and fame.

I'm not putting up with it anymore, me and Louis will be who we really are. Discover who our true fans our. I'm ready for it, I just don't know if Louis is. You can never tell with Louis, and he's been lying to me, keeping secrets. We never do that, we share everything. I guess things change within time, people change when they're forced to. I just need to change him back, prove everything would be ok.

But then there's this fake video Modest are planning on showing him. What's that all about? Surely Louis won't believe it. I would never say a bad word about him, well if I do it's only because I'm angry and I wouldn't mean it.

But what if Louis does believe it? He'll probably break down. Actually, I don't know if he would. Does he actually even care what I think of him anymore? No. He doesn't.

If he did he would have stood up for us, I need to make him care again. I need him to be brave. I'm over thinking things way too much. We probably won't even find him.

He'll probably end up forgetting everything we had.

 

LIAM'S POV

I watch as Harry slowly drifts off into his thoughts, not paying attention to a word anyone is saying. His eyes flutter shut and he sinks lower into the seat. I decide just to leave him to sleep, it's obviously not a good time for him right now.

"Do you think Louis will believe that video then?" I whisper to Zayn, leaning across Harry's body after I'm convinced he's asleep.

"Depends how convincing it is. I think Louis knows a lie when he hears one though" he assures me.