Can We Make It Right?

CHAPTER 6: Max

CHAPTER 6 (Max)

I'm starting to feel nervous again. Right from entering this spacious room where we will be practicing our play.

All are busy doing their businesses. Some are doing the props. Performers are talking to themselves and practicing their lines while I sit here in the corner alone. Thinking about their possible reactions with the script I made for them.

This is what self doubt is doing to me. I just negatively think full of what if's. What if they are secretly laughing at my work? What if they won't consider it? What if they replace it with better script? And kick me out from the team, and worst, from the club. That would be very awful slap for me.

Lance enters the room, reading the script I wrote. I just stare at him thinking what he's thinking. He's serious. What if he's disgusted or sickened or maybe he's not for it.

This self-doubt is slowly killing me.

"Ayos ka lang?"

Unconsciously, Sofie is infront me. Smiling to cheer up me. She noticed how I act weird since I entered this room. This is our second time we talk to each other. Still staring blankly to somewhere like the first time. I just give her a smile back.

"Kinakabahan ka?" She asks

I shake my head. It's way easier than to speak in this freezing room. She turns around after making sure that I'm okay and continue to read what she's been reading.

I look at the other side and surprisingly, I see Lance.

"Hi Max" he greets with a bright rare smile.

This is the first time I saw him wearing a smile. This is weird. He normally looks at me like he wants to punch me at my face. I even drank on his coffee and walked out nervously, don't know what to do. And now, He's approaching me with a smile. I felt guilty for thinking he's bad just because he stares like that. He might be going through a bad day that time.

"Diba ikaw yung scriptwriter? Yung nagsulat nito?" He asks while showing me the paper.

"Ah oo, ako nga yung gumawa niyan" I say

"Hindi ko kasi masyadong magets yung ibang lines, maybe you can teach me since ikaw naman yung nagsulat nito?"

He's not angry with me after that I mistakenly drank on his coffee. I don't know what should I answer. Did I made a confusing script? Or did I chose an inapproriate word? Also, I never did this before so how can I teach him? I may disappoint him or get things more complicated. So I don't have any choice but to excuse myself. Sofie is behind me and I know she can help. I poke her and ask her for a favor.

"Sofie, pwede bang tulungan mo si Lance sa script niya?" I whisper

"Saan? Patingin?" Then she grabs the paper "Eh hindi ba ikaw 'yung nagsulat nito? Ikaw dapat magturo niyan" she says and turns around.

"Sige, okay lang. Aaralin ko nalang mag isa" Lance responds with disappointment and turns away.

Sofie is right, I should help Lance to deal with it. But how? Can I really help? Come what may, what happens will happen.

"Lance!"

I shout, he turns back.

Where should I start then? I'm going to teach something I never did before.

"Ah Max, wag kang mag alala, hindi magulo 'yung sulat mo. Gusto ko lang humingi ng tulong sa'yo para mas maintindihan ko" he says smiling.

He seems to notice I'm acting weird having second thought. But what he just said actually helped. At least I know that my script isn't that bad.