Guilty Mind

Chapter 28

LutwidgeSparrow10

-Already changed my username cause someone wanna hacked it. He/she alrady did pero 'di nagtagumpay, er.

Aga's POV

I've been sleeping for like hours and I swear, mas masarap matulog kapag katabi si Lea. Mas masarap matulog sa kama ni Lea kasi kung ano ang amoy niya, iyon ang amoy ng kama niya.

At ni Aya ha.

Kanina pa din ako paikot ikot dito sa sudy room ni Lea, madami silang antique, lalo naman sa libro,  stating what is obvious. Nagbubukas ako ng ilang libro, halos lahat nga ata ng topic ng maaari mo mahanap, naandito na, muntikan ng matalo ang National Book Store.

Pagkakuha ko ng isang libro ay kasabay nito ang pagpatak ng isang litrato ng bata.

I looked at it very carefully, looks familiar beacuse...

It was,

Aya.

"Hey, ano 'yan? Hinahanap ka ng anak ko." nagitla na lamang ako ng biglang may nagsalita sa likod ko, si Lea.

Hindi ba siya kumatok or hindi ko lamang narinig ang mga yapak niya

"Correction, anak natin." sabi ko sabay harap sa kanya habang nakapamywang bago siya kinindatan.

"Whatever, so what's that?" she said while pointing to the picture na agad ko naman itinago sa bulsa ko but why will I?

"Uhm, a picture?" pagsasabi ko bago ipinakita sa kanya at pinagmamasdan kung anong reaksiyon niya.

"Just saw this here, it looks like a photo album but full of poems and nalaglag ito." sabi ko sa kanya bago kinagat ang ibabang labi ngunit bigla naman sumilay ang ngiti sa kaniyang mga labi.

Kinuha niya pa iyon sa akin bago ako iniwan. Darn.

"Lea, balik mo sa akin 'yan." pagsunod ko sa kanya habang hawak hawak niya iyong litrato.

"Why you wanna get this? You saw this on my house, it's mine." pagtataray niya sa akin, oh, darn. She even flipped her hair, looks sexy.

"Babes, because that is Aya. Now, can I get that?" I asked her and her face changed into something I can't read.

"What? Can you repeat the statement you just said while ago?" she said like every minute this time, she will gonna cry. Why?

This time, wala na akong ginawa.

"That is Aya..." I said in a soft voice while walking near her, don't cry, baby...

"This is not Aya, this is me!!" she shouted and it's like my whole world shattered all at once again, like what is wrong with me and it's like the world is really playing a game on me?

Really? At this point, totoo na ba na si Lea ay si Aya? Totoo na ba o just a prank again?

Cause this is not really good.

"What now, Aga? You will loved me again because I am Aya now? What?" she asked me while shouting at unti unti na lamang may tumakas na luha sa kanyang mga mata.

"Of couse, no..." I said and hugged her tight but she pushes me away, what again?

We talk, we chose to love, we fight and then why with all of so many girls? Why with my Lea I need to feel the sadness, the loneliness like I just want to begged her all over and over again just to comeback with me. Just to be with me.

Suspicion always haunts the guilty mind.

It's true this time that I love Lea because she is Lea and not everybody else or not because she is Aya.

"I'm gonna leave. This will be my last words, help yourself to forget and also help yourself to be happy, no one can make you happy if you will not help yourself out. I love you but this thing is enough. There is always an ending of every story." she let it out, why will she leave me?

"Look Lea, I love you because you are my Lea not everybody else, I love you, all your flaws, every little thing of you. Please, baby, don't leave me..." kahit ako ay umiiyak na, maybe this is what I will really got being a playboy.

Lea is my karma.

"Ma? Pa?" Aya said, my daughter.

"Aya will come with me." Lea said at agad akong umiling, no.

"Hindi niyo ako iiwan, no..." I said at ang mga tuhod ko ay bigla na lamang nanghina.

Now, I'm kneeling in front of them.

"We will."