Guilty Mind

Chapter 50

@LutwidgeSparrow10

-Sorry for grammatical  errors.

Charlene's POV

Lea already know the truth, I mean, everything. And what is the most heart breaking part, even me, I don't know that Aga is part of the plan, all I know na ang may pakana ng lahat ay si Rob.

It's been a week since that revelation happened, Lea never talked to me, kahit isang salita lamang, kahit, hi, hello, wala ako natatanggap.

Ang mga bata lamang ang kinakausap niya palagi.

Dear Diary,

Since I was a kid, I only want to be happy, I only want to laugh and smile and nothing more until everything turned around, my twin is in danger that time so, I took every pain, every little bit of that pain.

For years, I kept my twin personality with myself because that's my Papa wants, our Papa. He threatened me that if I said everything with my twin, my twin will be in danger AGAIN. In pain, AGAIN. Living with sadness, AGAIN.

Doesn't my Papa know that I took all of that and still taking all of that, again and again and again?

I met my twin when she became a broadway diva, I tracked every where she goes, when and where is her next concerts, movies, and everything in her life and here we go again, my Dad find out that I am searching, that I am stalking for my twin and because of that... my father make my life like I am living in hell.

It was worse until I saw my sister, my twin, my bestfriend again, for the second time.

I flirt with his leading man and all at once, it's like the universe is on my side, because of Aga, my sister and I talked.

We are happy, it's like we are never far apart. In my mind, everything was fighting if I should tell everything to her, her peraonalitu because I made my twin different.

She grew up but with another personality and I still love her.

And now my diary, she knows everything, she remembered everything and I am too late to tell it to her, she's mad at me, I know that but until when, Aya?

-Seya.

Isinarado ko agad ang diary ko matapos ko magsulat, naandito kasi ako ngayon sa tabihan ng pool, nakikipagtitigan sa tubig, baka kasi kinadatan ako.

"Mamaaaa!!" sigaw ni Andres, naglalaro sila ni Carriel, ni Atasha.

Hanggang ngayon, ayaw maniwala ni Andres na kakambal niya si Carriel, who will? May nilibing, may proweba na namatay ang anak ko pero nagpositive si Carriel sa DNA test.

At... nakita ko din kay Carriel iyong birthmark, eksaktong eksakto kung saan mayroon si Atasha.

Pinuntahan ko agad si Andres at si Carriel, hanggang ngayon, walang imik si Lea, wala naman si Aga dito sa bahay.

Sobrang tahimik, si Andres, nilalaro si Carriel kasi kung hindi, baka kahit iyon, hindi na din umimik.

Kita ni Carriel ang pag aaway ni Lea at Aga, halos buong gabi, umiiyak siya na baka daw hindi na magkabalikan ang mga magulang niya.

"TitaMama, can you bring this to Mama?" pagtatanong sa akin ni Carriel, she called me Mama...

Again?

"W-what?" pagtatanong ko kaya napahagikhik si Andres sa tabihan, ay, ano kayang nakakatawa, anak?

"Pakidala po kay Mama, TitaMama." she said before kissing my cheeks at agad na din sila umalis ni Andres para maglaro na ulit noong kung ano man.

Kinuha ko agad iyong pagkain na ginawa nina Andres at Carriel, for sure, nagpatulong sila kay Manang kasi sa amoy pa lang ng cookies, si Manang Eva ang nagawa nito.

Kumatok ako sa pintuan ni Lea pero walang nasagot. Kumatok muli ako pero wala pa din talaga.

Binuksan ko ang pinto, hindi naka lock. Sinarado ko din agad ng makapasok ako.

She's staring at the windows na parang may malungkot na palabas.

"Lea..." pagtawag ko sa kanya pero hindi niya ako sinasagot.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago magsalita muli.

"Lea, ginawa ka nina Carriel ng cookies, o. Masarap 'to." pagsasabi ko at inilagay sa tabihan niyang nasa table.

Agad niyang tiningnan iyon at tinakpan ang ilong niya bago tumakbo sa banyo.

Narinig ko ang pagsusuka niya kaya sinundan ko agad.

Lea's POV

Alam kong masarap iyong mga cookies pero sa amoy pa lang, parang hinuhukay ang tiyan ko, it's just, hindi ko kaya kainin.

Gusto ko dahil gawa nina Carriel pero ayoko dahil alam kong isusuka ko lang.

Mabaho siya para sa akin, hindi ko din alam kung bakit pero parang gusto ko ng burger tapos pasta at'yaka mangga tapos sula iyong sawsawan.

Hindi ko naman alam na ganito pala kahirap kapag buntis.

"Urrk" pagsuka ko habang hinahaplos ni Charlene ang likudan ko.

"Okay ka lang ba? Gusto mo ba magpa check up?" pag aalala niya at agad ako umiling nago nagmumog.

Agad niyang inabot sa akin ang tissue pero natigil din agad siya...

Darn it, doon ko ba naiwan?