LOVING BEYOND LIMITS - loving me will give you pain....

CH-7 Sleepless night ~

- Purnima POV -

I managed to went towards in the direction of the bathroom to take a shower to relax my mind and body from all the chaos that happen awhile ago.

I stepped inside the bathroom and closed the door behind my back and move forwards, i remove my all clothes one by one feeling like a soul less body.

I stand under the shower, then turn the shower tab on.

The moment i turn on the shower tab, a chilling sensation ran inside my whole body...., shivering me to the core as the cold water flow down on my body from my head to toe.

I hugged myself immediately feeling immense cold and chilling sensations in my body but stayed still, as the pain i was feeling inside my heart was nothing infront of it.

I closed my eyes, tears started collecting in my dried teary eyes, as one after another this afternoon scenes started to flash infront of my eyes.

" I hurted him again, why???.... why?? I am like this, why Ganesh ji ' can not you show a little mercy on your devotee, huhh... Am I that bad,... do i not deserved to be loved..., I never able to feel my father's love for which i craved for do not know from how many years and when i finally found someone, who loved me truly.... i had to break his heart... again and again, why??? Why?? Huhh... WHYYYYY??? all this things is only happening with me... huhh...."

I screamed in pain, standing under the cold shower.

" किस गुनाह की सजा दे रहे हैं आप मुझे गणेश जी???, ऐसा कोण सा पाप किया है मैंने जो आज ये हालत हो गयी है मेरी???......., ये दर्द ना ही मुझे चैन से कभी जीने देगा और ना ही चैन से कभी मारने देगा.., नर्क सी जिंदगी बन गयी है मेरी अब तो...., ऐसा लगता है जैसे कि पागल हो जाऊंगी मैं अब.., PLEASEEee गणेश जी कुछ तो कीजिए न अब आप.... pleaseeeee.... pleaseeeee...."

"For what crime are you punishing me Ganesh ji???, What sin have I committed that I am in this condition today???....., This pain will neither let me live peacefully nor it will let me die peacefully.., my life has become like hell now..., it seems as if I will go mad now..., PLEASEEEEE Ganesh ji, please do something now... pleaseeeee.. ..pleaseeeee...."

I said all these hanging my head low, closing my eyes..., while tears started dropping from my eye lids uncontrollably, falling on the wet floor one after another.

" Pleaseee... Ganesh ji अब और नहीं, बहुत ले लिया आपने परीक्षा मेरी, अब बस.... अब और नहीं सह पाउंगी मैं...., अब मैं सब कुछ आप पे छोडती हूँ, जिसमें सबकी भलाई हो आप वही करना.... क्युकी ये सब अब मेरे समझ से परे जा रहा है,....."

" Pleaseee... Ganesh ji, no more, you have tested me enough, NOW IT IS ENOUGH... I will not be able to bear it anymore..., Now I leave everything on you..., you do only what is good for everyone.... because all this is going beyond my understanding now....."

I said this still standing under the cold shower unbothered from the chilly sensations i was feeling from the cold water.

After half an hour later, crying my heart out under the shower while hiccuping badly, i composed myself somehow for some moment and came out from the bathroom while wrapping a towel around my naked body.