⚠️ tw: mentions sh
you've been so distant lately. you've been sad, confused, upset, unhappy and other unrecognizable emotions.
you were in the bathroom, crying cause your urges started to come back. you've been doing so good but something in your mind just made you do it..
you hear colby come back home and you hury and put away the evidence. you suddenly hear three knocks at the bathroom door.
"y/n? i'm home" colby says
"i'll be out in a sec!"
you quickly wipe off your tears and try to clean up your fresh cuts. you pull your hood over your head and walk to colby's room
you never have your hood on so colby immediately knew something wasn't right
he puts down his phone and looks at you with suspicion. "hey, come here" he taps his lap signaling you to take a seat.
you sit in his lap sideways so you can see his face. "everything alright?" he asks placing a hand on your thigh
you want to tell the truth but you're worried that he's gonna be mad at you so you just nod, trying to hold back tears
"are you sure? you've been kinda quiet recently.. i've noticed that you.."
you break out into tears and fall into his chest giving him a hug
he immediately wraps his arms around you and rubs your back
"it's okay, let it all out" he says calmly
you cry for a few minutes before he says something again
he lets go of the hug to wipe some of your tears away.
"i knew something was up, why didn't you tell me?"
"i was scared"
"scared of what baby? you know you can tell me anything" he says as he lays a hand over your arm for comfort but you wince in pain. that's when he realized...
"y/n." he says worriedly
colby pulls up your sleeve and sees the fresh cuts on your forearm.
"you were doing so good, what happened?"
"i- i" you stutter
"hey, im not mad at you okay? i just wanna help. it hurts me seeing you struggling like this, lets go and clean these up yeah?" he says comfortingly
you weakly nod
colby takes you to the bathroom where he sets you on the counter by the sink. he gets out some bandages and rubbing alcohol to clean your wounds
"i knew something was up but i didn't know you were struggling again" colby says
"same. it all hit me at once" you explain
after chatting for a little bit about what happened you start to cry again because you feel bad.
"im sorry" you cry
"for what?" colby asks
"for this, i promised i wouldn't do it again but i-"
"shhhh" he interupts you "don't apologize for something you can't control. like i said, im not mad at you one bit. im so glad that you came for help. we will get through this together, k?" he lifts your chin up then wipes away some of your tears "hey look at me"
you look up at him with your teary eyes
"i love you okay? so so much and im very proud of you. you're so strong, you hear me?" he says
you nod in response and he cups your cheeks then kisses your forehead.
"wanna go cuddle and put on a movie?" he asks
"mhm" you weakly nod
he takes you in his arms and walks back to bed where he lays you down. he crawls in bed behind you but then you just roll on top of him. you bury your face in his chest as he wraps his arms around you. he strokes your hair lightly as he watches you fall asleep in his arms
this has been requested by sooo many people so i felt the need to write it. but if i'm being completely honest, i've never had an experience like this so i didn't really know how to write this. i just went off of things i've read and expirences my friends had... im sorry it took so long and im sorry if it sucks! also, just wanted to say that if you're struggling and really need someone to talk to my messages are always open 🫶🏼 i love you
