Someday, Ace [Rory & Logan]

6. Ache

[Rory]

The tears won't stop. Someone make them stop.

I'm sure by now the cab driver thinks I've gone insane. I've been crying from the moment I got in.

Leaving Logan today felt eerily similar to my graduation day when he walked away from me. Only this time I was the one walking away. Why didn't I just stay? I mean he's in the hospital for God's sakes.

I definitely inherited my mother's gift for running away.

The very thought of him lying there in a hospital bed makes me physically sick. I want nothing more than to be there for him, to take care of him. His battered appearance mirrored the state of my own heart. Weak and broken.

He did seem happy to see me but that only makes this hurt even more. But why was he happy? I mean I did turn him down. God, why am I over thinking this? I just wish I could shut my brain off even for just a minute.

*buzzzzzbuzzzzzzzz*

"1 New Message" my phone's screen read.

It was great to see you Ace. I'm going home tomorrow. Will you come by? We need to talk.

........

Even through a freaking text message that man can make my heart flutter as though it had wings. On one hand, I really want to see him again.....on the other I know it will only make moving on hurt even worse. I don't think I could stomach hearing him say something like "We should be friends," it would hurt way too much. Logan either has to be mine or nothing at all. Having him in my life and not being mine and mine alone was impossible for me.

From the moment I met him by the coffee cart, he has turned my world upside down. Now that I've seen how it feels to be without him, I don't think it's something I could take feeling for the rest of my life.

Oh god. I wish I knew what he wants to talk about tomorrow. Guess I'll never know if I don't go......

Ok. What time should I be there?