Incognito

Prologue

Shake it out // Florence & the Machine

And I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

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HE said he didn't like it complicated, so I told him we could keep it simple. But being who we were, who we wanted to be and how our relationship measured up to, how could we?

"One day you'll see the world the way I see it and you'll never want to go back." He insisted, peering out on the skyline, the wind blew his hair in all different directions. I wasn't sure at the time what could be running through his thick head. He was leaving me tonight and this was how we were going to end. I forced the tears to stay in my eyes, I did not feel like showing any emotions. He could hide his so well, why couldn't I?

"You might not want the air that I breathe now but, once you are gone, you're going to wish you did. You'll miss me." I fought back as I bit my lip. He glanced over to me, after becoming mesmerized from the gorgeous twinkling lights that reflected from every superstructure in the city, perhaps trying to remember it all. He noticed my constrained expression and his own dropped. I guess he detested the pain as much as did I.

"Please, don't make it any harder than it already is." He places his large palms to my cheeks, his thumbs brushing the rebellious tears away. My eyes were pressed shut, if only our eyes could take pictures. Anything for me to remember him.

"It wouldn't be if you didn't have to leave." I persisted, poising myself. He kept just as much sangfroid in him as much as I did, but I just wished that he would break, crack like an egg from pressure. I wanted him to melt into my hands and stay with me, instead of ditching me for the crime, for the vengeance. Why did heroes like him have to have assiduous goals, it was ridiculous. But more importantly, why couldn't he just be satisfied with what he had here? He had me and my family, his best buds, the neighbors, even the principal adored him. What more could he ask for?

I swayed back into reality when finding two warm lips pressed against my forehead, lingering on a few seconds longer than should. Another great time to have cameras in your eyes. I had so many questions about the new unravellings of my future, and how to take them on. He jumped up onto the cement edge and looked back at me once more. By now I had no reason to hold back and, tears streamed down my face like a mini Niagara Falls. He smiled, it was soft but constricted. It was one of his famous fake ones. I bet he was dying on the inside also. I was the only one who really cared for him anyway.

"Goodbye" he mouthed, then propelled himself away using all the strength in his knees to take off. His body soared into the murky overcast.

"I love you." My mind tapped into his head, or so I hoped, I was still learning my new skills and he was probably long gone by now. My last wish was that he would remember me every second he was away. If only he knew what he would be losing, and if only I knew that there were better days to come, because right now, everything felt lost.

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Hey guys, so I've been changing this draft for a while now. It's been quite a while since I started this and so, if you all would see any mistakes or plot holes, please feel free to point them out. Thanks for reading!

Also, I had changed the name Sadie to Violet, just FYI if I never took out the name at some point.